- Jul 11, 2017
- 4
- 24
- Tinnitus Since
- June 2, 2017
- Cause of Tinnitus
- Jaw or mercury?
Hey everybody, I got Tinnitus about six weeks ago. It started in my left ear and spread to my right in a few days. My mind has been all over the place (Being a life-long pessimist doesn't help one bit).
I visited an ENT and he checked out my ear saying it looked fine. He then used some tool he hit with a hammer that made it ring and put it in different places and asked me which placements sounded louder. I'm guessing it was a really basic hearing test? He said my hearing seemed fine at first glance, but he'd need me to do a full hearing test to make sure. He told me that since I'm sixteen that most places won't do hearing tests for people my age so I'd have to go to some special one, and that it may take a while to get an appointment. He told me that the office would call back about an appointment in a bit to tell me when I'd get mine. I waited a month and called back, and they set up an appointment six months from now.
I don't know what to do in these six months. I thought about just waiting it out at first, but by week two I'm going insane. I can't handle this. Silence was a very important thing to me before. I had discussions with friends about how I'd rather live in a world with no sound multiple times before all this started. It drives me up the wall that I lost something like that. I had always hated loud noise and avoided it. Never went to concerts, never wore headphones, max volume at 20% on my laptop. I had been struggling for years with whether I wanted to die or not and about two weeks before I decided I wanted to live... I take that back now.
I'm always thinking about what could have caused this. My ENT thinks it's a shift in the jaw since I've had a jaw clenching problem for years. I went to the orthodontist a week back and he said everything seems normal, and he'll take an X-Ray next month if it continues. I sometimes have minor pains in the jaw for a bit, but I really don't know. There's sometimes pressure on the ear, but I don't know if that's normal or means anything. I had a lot of tuna for the month prior to when the tinnitus started and mercury could be a factor, but I hear the mercury in tuna isn't significant enough on its own to cause anything. If it's hearing loss, I don't know how I fucked up this bad.
I just don't know anymore. I just want everything to stop.
I visited an ENT and he checked out my ear saying it looked fine. He then used some tool he hit with a hammer that made it ring and put it in different places and asked me which placements sounded louder. I'm guessing it was a really basic hearing test? He said my hearing seemed fine at first glance, but he'd need me to do a full hearing test to make sure. He told me that since I'm sixteen that most places won't do hearing tests for people my age so I'd have to go to some special one, and that it may take a while to get an appointment. He told me that the office would call back about an appointment in a bit to tell me when I'd get mine. I waited a month and called back, and they set up an appointment six months from now.
I don't know what to do in these six months. I thought about just waiting it out at first, but by week two I'm going insane. I can't handle this. Silence was a very important thing to me before. I had discussions with friends about how I'd rather live in a world with no sound multiple times before all this started. It drives me up the wall that I lost something like that. I had always hated loud noise and avoided it. Never went to concerts, never wore headphones, max volume at 20% on my laptop. I had been struggling for years with whether I wanted to die or not and about two weeks before I decided I wanted to live... I take that back now.
I'm always thinking about what could have caused this. My ENT thinks it's a shift in the jaw since I've had a jaw clenching problem for years. I went to the orthodontist a week back and he said everything seems normal, and he'll take an X-Ray next month if it continues. I sometimes have minor pains in the jaw for a bit, but I really don't know. There's sometimes pressure on the ear, but I don't know if that's normal or means anything. I had a lot of tuna for the month prior to when the tinnitus started and mercury could be a factor, but I hear the mercury in tuna isn't significant enough on its own to cause anything. If it's hearing loss, I don't know how I fucked up this bad.
I just don't know anymore. I just want everything to stop.