Seriously, does this hell have an end? I'm so tired and bored of this T! It's enough, I have suffered enough...
In the right environment, at home for e.g. it can be masked to become less of a problem. It's also my "safe house" protecting me from unwanted high sounds. The problem is this society which is so loud, I can't even buy food without cover my ears at least a hand full of times on the way there! It's not durable, it's not acceptable nor tolerable.
I use earplugs sometimes when I want to act like "normal" people, and not like a weirdo.
Thing is also that I have no education yet, so I'm being job-hopping between different temporary posts which often are too loud for me. So I decided to go back to school and started uni, on an program that is so interesting. It's the only thing I want to study. I can't wear earplugs in school because it makes it almost impossible to communicate with other students, which is a must. But it does not pass a single day without being exposed to sudden high noises. I get anxiety and panic when I think of the future which probably contains more T than I have today.
I do not know if I should chose a shorter education and afterward chose the most quiet job I can find and just go with it. Or if I should go with this dream of mine which is the current thing I'm studying. I do not want T to rule my life, but I guess one needs to consider oneself defeated sometime.
If I however manage to succeed the education I'm currently studying, I will be able to chose better jobs in the future.
I wish that this T could have got to my in a later state of my life, this time was the worst thinkable. I do not know what to do. It seems like suffering from T isn't enough, now my whole life is at risk.
What do you think I should do? Have you been in a similar situation? If so, what did you do? And what is your job?
In the right environment, at home for e.g. it can be masked to become less of a problem. It's also my "safe house" protecting me from unwanted high sounds. The problem is this society which is so loud, I can't even buy food without cover my ears at least a hand full of times on the way there! It's not durable, it's not acceptable nor tolerable.
I use earplugs sometimes when I want to act like "normal" people, and not like a weirdo.
Thing is also that I have no education yet, so I'm being job-hopping between different temporary posts which often are too loud for me. So I decided to go back to school and started uni, on an program that is so interesting. It's the only thing I want to study. I can't wear earplugs in school because it makes it almost impossible to communicate with other students, which is a must. But it does not pass a single day without being exposed to sudden high noises. I get anxiety and panic when I think of the future which probably contains more T than I have today.
I do not know if I should chose a shorter education and afterward chose the most quiet job I can find and just go with it. Or if I should go with this dream of mine which is the current thing I'm studying. I do not want T to rule my life, but I guess one needs to consider oneself defeated sometime.
If I however manage to succeed the education I'm currently studying, I will be able to chose better jobs in the future.
I wish that this T could have got to my in a later state of my life, this time was the worst thinkable. I do not know what to do. It seems like suffering from T isn't enough, now my whole life is at risk.
What do you think I should do? Have you been in a similar situation? If so, what did you do? And what is your job?