So here is my story, I know many of you may have had similar ones...
One year ago I went to 2 loud concerts two nights in a row. No hearing protection, next to speakers. I have had tinnitus ever since. Now it was very hard at first, discouraging when I saw a ENT and he said "There is no cure, you will just have to live with it." But then after some time (I don't quite remember how long) I got used to it, I no longer really heard it unless I plugged my ears and listened for it. Sometimes when I drank too much coffee it would be more present, but besides that I was fine.
5 months later (May 2013) I made a really dumb choice to go to another concert. I wore earplugs, but only 12NRR, didn't realize at the time that it was not a high protection. I was nowhere near speakers, but still after that concert my tinnitus spiked all over again - this time it seemed worse than I had ever had it. I stayed home sick for a few days and cried, but somehow got over it. I don't remember how long it took, but again it had diminished and I was carrying on my life normally. I started to wear earplugs if I was ever in a tad-bit loud environment - like when my professors would screen a documentary in class, or even the few movie theatre trips I had.
Now, almost one week ago (November 29, 2013) I went to a concert. I knew I shouldn't have gone. I had a really bad feeling about it. But somehow let my friends (who do not have T) convince me that I'd be fine, I wore protection of NRR 33 (which I think I shoved in too far, because they had hurt) stayed away from speakers, and left early. I left with my right ear feeling full, and the ringing was extremely unbearable. Now almost a week has gone by and the ringing has not decreased, and my anxiety and emotions have been a wreck. My ear still has fullness - but I'm not sure if its a cause from my earplugs or what. I am also scared the T wont diminish again, because I don't remember how long it took last time.
I keep blaming myself, and my family keeps reminding me that they told me not to go. That I knew this would happen. Along with the increase this time I have had a loss of appetite, and depression.
Where do I go from here?
One year ago I went to 2 loud concerts two nights in a row. No hearing protection, next to speakers. I have had tinnitus ever since. Now it was very hard at first, discouraging when I saw a ENT and he said "There is no cure, you will just have to live with it." But then after some time (I don't quite remember how long) I got used to it, I no longer really heard it unless I plugged my ears and listened for it. Sometimes when I drank too much coffee it would be more present, but besides that I was fine.
5 months later (May 2013) I made a really dumb choice to go to another concert. I wore earplugs, but only 12NRR, didn't realize at the time that it was not a high protection. I was nowhere near speakers, but still after that concert my tinnitus spiked all over again - this time it seemed worse than I had ever had it. I stayed home sick for a few days and cried, but somehow got over it. I don't remember how long it took, but again it had diminished and I was carrying on my life normally. I started to wear earplugs if I was ever in a tad-bit loud environment - like when my professors would screen a documentary in class, or even the few movie theatre trips I had.
Now, almost one week ago (November 29, 2013) I went to a concert. I knew I shouldn't have gone. I had a really bad feeling about it. But somehow let my friends (who do not have T) convince me that I'd be fine, I wore protection of NRR 33 (which I think I shoved in too far, because they had hurt) stayed away from speakers, and left early. I left with my right ear feeling full, and the ringing was extremely unbearable. Now almost a week has gone by and the ringing has not decreased, and my anxiety and emotions have been a wreck. My ear still has fullness - but I'm not sure if its a cause from my earplugs or what. I am also scared the T wont diminish again, because I don't remember how long it took last time.
I keep blaming myself, and my family keeps reminding me that they told me not to go. That I knew this would happen. Along with the increase this time I have had a loss of appetite, and depression.
Where do I go from here?