I'm Back After a Year of Tinnitus

[Danikam]

Hey guys,

Last year I came here looking for answers.
I became so depressed, sad, panicked and obsessed that my husband blocked me from TinnitusTalk... it was the right move.

Some of you may remember me, I got tinnitus while pregnant and pretty much lost my shit.

I'm fully habituated now and I'll share my story in the success story section but I wanted to say hi!

 

[Assthetic]

Glad to hear you're doing better! How loud is your tinnitus (can you hear it while you're driving?) and how well do you sleep nowadays?

 

[Tinniger]

Why did you create a new account?

 

[Danikam]

My T changes, if I try to hear it I can hear it almost everywhere.

I don't really "hear" it anymore....my brain just doesn't pay attention to it.

I occasionally notice a spike....usually around my period or if I'm sick with a cold.

I really just don't give a shit t about it anymore.

I sleep like I did before T

I had to make a new account because while I was getting better I was pretty much banned from tinnitus groups, lol
The old PW is long gone.

I'm back because I promised myself that when I got better I would support others.

 

[billie48]

I'm fully habituated now and I'll share my story in the success story section but I wanted to say hi!

Welcome back to visit the forum. Glad to hear you have fully habituated. We sure love to read your success story and other new members will find strength and hope from your story. Congrats to your success.

 

[Rajin]

My T changes, if I try to hear it I can hear it almost everywhere.

I don't really "hear" it anymore....my brain just doesn't pay attention to it.

You say you hear it everywhere, then you say you don't hear it anymore. It it stll there at the exact volume but because you don't pay attention to it you don't hear it. Amazing! Why do I feel this is impossible. What about when you go to sleep.

 

[Danikam]

Hi!!
It's kinda like this...
I can always "click" into hearing my T....meaning if I look for it I find it and I can do this in almost any environment.

I don't feel like the volume of my T changes at all, the perception of my volume did.

When I was in my freak out stage I was so hyper focused on the sound that my brain was searching for it all the time...it would focus on the sound...my brain was like a camera lens putting the T noise into focus and all other sounds in the back ground it has now flipped...putting the T sound out of focus and all the other sounds in life, the important ones, into focus.
Does that make sense?

If I go into a room with little to no sound I can focus on my T and focus my "camera" lens (brain) on it....it can sound very, very loud....here's the thing....when/if this happens I have zero emotional response...I have trained my brain to not care about T...it's not focus worthy anymore.

 

[Rajin]

I think I still at the point where my camera lens is focused directly on my T , that why I hear it all day. Hopefully soon I can flip it too. About the room it make perfect sense if you hear it don't be afraid. Your post is awesome!!!!! Thanks so much to reply and came back to help us all . Very nice of you . God blessings!

 

[Danikam]

I think I still at the point where my camera lens is focused directly on my T , that why I hear it all day. Hopefully soon I can flip it too. About the room it make perfect sense if you hear it don't be afraid. Your post is awesome!!!!! Thanks so much to reply and came back to help us all . Very nice of you . God blessings!

You will!!
It just takes time but try a recognize the moments in your life where this is already happening!!
Maybe when you are having a great conversation or watching a movie...there are moments when you are not thinking about T!
Look for those moments, hand on to them for they are proof that this will get better...over time those moments turn into hours, hours turn in to days and days turn into weeks!!
Once you brain stops connecting T with a threat...it starts to let it go!!
If you hang on to this idea that this will never get better, you will always be miserable and scared and let yourself continue to freak out you are prolonging the process to get better!!
I say NOW is the time to take care of yourself. Indulge in relaxing, eat your favorite food, connect with people you love search for happy moments and get out of your head!!!
Flood your brain and you heart with feel good feelings....show your brain that T doesn't matter and it will start to get the point!!!

 

[emmalee]

Hey guys,

Last year I came here looking for answers.
I became so depressed, sad, panicked and obsessed that my husband blocked me from TinnitusTalk... it was the right move.

Some of you may remember me, I got tinnitus while pregnant and pretty much lost my shit.

I'm fully habituated now and I'll share my story in the success story section but I wanted to say hi!

You are an absolutely, wonderful young woman, @Danikam. Your success story and your willingness to come here and share it is appreciated by SO many of us.

You are simply the best of the best!

 

[Alyssa M]

Hey guys,

Last year I came here looking for answers.
I became so depressed, sad, panicked and obsessed that my husband blocked me from TinnitusTalk... it was the right move.

Some of you may remember me, I got tinnitus while pregnant and pretty much lost my shit.

I'm fully habituated now and I'll share my story in the success story section but I wanted to say hi!

Hi! I'm new to this forum and I just found your post which really resonates with me. I first got tinnitus when I was 6 months pregnant with baby #2. It has continued to get worse and worse and she is now 8 months old. All I feel is fear, I'm scared I'm being a bad mom or that I will become a bad mom. I'm scared that my brain will always focus on these noises and that I'll never really be present again. What steps did you take to habituate? Sorry, maybe you posted this elsewhere... not sure how to find it. New to all of this.

 

[Chilliwoman]

My first time here. Woke on 21st June with a beeping in my right ear. Thought E.T. was trying to call home. A few days later it turned to a high pitch in one ear and a lower tone in the other. The last few days now have been strange because I now have what sounds like a hoover in my right ear but when I put my finger inside to listen for it, it disappears. Does anybody understand me? Had a long depressing day with it today.

 

[coffee_girl]

Your husband did the right thing lol, congrats !!

 

[RobertFahey]

Well done. You've shifted it to the back burner with the dishwasher, heating system, cars passing by, muffled dialogue -- the cacophony of daily life, where it belongs. Question: Since you were panicking during pregnancy, did anyone put you on meds to calm you down?

 

[Danikam]

Well done. You've shifted it to the back burner with the dishwasher, heating system, cars passing by, muffled dialogue -- the cacophony of daily life, where it belongs. Question: Since you were panicking during pregnancy, did anyone put you on meds to calm you down?

They did!!!

I was in such a state that I was prescribed Xanax.

It was a very low dose and I used it very sparingly but the state of panic that I was in was much more unhealthy for my pregnancy then the risks from taking a low-dose medication.

After my son was born, completely healthy by the way, I used Xanax for about 4 more months every now and then.

 

[dougwarby]

They did!!!

I was in such a state that I was prescribed Xanax.

It was a very low dose and I used it very sparingly but the state of panic that I was in was much more unhealthy for my pregnancy then the risks from taking a low-dose medication.

After my son was born, completely healthy by the way, I used Xanax for about 4 more months every now and then.

thanks, a reassuring story. Best of luck, still early days for me but working on calming myself down

 

[sakrt]

Hormones can be a HUGE factor to specific type of tinnitus which usually goes away or reduced after birth. Happens during monthly cycles for many, during menopause and for those on birth control. For those who developed T during pregnancy and continues after childbirth, ask your Gyn. to do a hormone check. It's commonly known, but not informed... especially among gynecologists. Much has nothing to do with "habituation" or narcotics/anti depressants etc. but to do with hormonal imbalance as the T level often reduces to "tolerable" or resolves altogether.

I had friends who had same fleeting type of horrible T which went away after childbirth(s). They said they "could not imagine having it forever", so they were able to empathize for those who are suffering nonstop based upon experience. Please share to others how horrible T and H can be. Awareness.

Congrats to @Danikam that your body appears to be back on track to normalacy and able to enjoy life again!

 

[Agrajag364]

They did!!!

I was in such a state that I was prescribed Xanax.

It was a very low dose and I used it very sparingly but the state of panic that I was in was much more unhealthy for my pregnancy then the risks from taking a low-dose medication.

After my son was born, completely healthy by the way, I used Xanax for about 4 more months every now and then.

That's a really interesting story, I'm so glad you came to terms with it and are happy. Do you know why there are so many stories of this thing starting during pregnancy?

 

[Agrajag364]

Hormones can be a HUGE factor to specific type of tinnitus which usually goes away or reduced after birth. Happens during monthly cycles for many, during menopause and for those on birth control. For those who developed T during pregnancy and continues after childbirth, ask your Gyn. to do a hormone check. It's commonly known, but not informed... especially among gynecologists. Much has nothing to do with "habituation" or narcotics/anti depressants etc. but to do with hormonal imbalance as the T level often reduces to "tolerable" or resolves altogether.

I had friends who had same fleeting type of horrible T which went away after childbirth(s). They said they "could not imagine having it forever", so they were able to empathize for those who are suffering nonstop based upon experience. Please share to others how horrible T and H can be. Awareness.

Congrats to @Danikam that your body appears to be back on track to normalacy and able to enjoy life again!

Which hormones are in imbalance?

 

[Jr_time]

Would you recommend Xanax to new tinnitus people? Or would be better without it ?

 

[Contrast]

Would you recommend Xanax to new tinnitus people? Or would be better without it ?

Xanax is one bad meme, keep riding the psychiatric carousel and we'll never have a cure.

 

[Lilah]

Would you recommend Xanax to new tinnitus people? Or would be better without it ?

Do you want to take it for sleep or anxiety/depression? I was going through several rounds of days without sleep, and then crashing for a few hours before I decided to take Trazadone 50mg. It has helped me to get around 5-7 hours of sleep every night depending on my anxiety levels.

 

[Jr_time]

Do you want to take it for sleep or anxiety/depression? I was going through several rounds of days without sleep, and then crashing for a few hours before I decided to take Trazadone 50mg. It has helped me to get around 5-7 hours of sleep every night depending on my anxiety levels.

I want to take them for anxiety, but still debating on taking them. I was getting used to the t and now I started with the same episode I had three months ago, just bummed out and stressing.