Just a few notes to drop into the positivity pool , most of these thoughts realised before the T appeared.
After lurking for a few weeks , the best info I've seen that works for me are rooted in the neroplasticity role....
Excuse me , I'm no certified life guru, well no more than any other 49 yr old who's had a bit of life experience, a little story to tell...
I know very little about the neuroscience just my own experiences that have helped me through the ups n downs.
This is without a doubt an EMOTIONAL journey / challenge.
I tell my son I'm 10,000 yrs old( he understands what I mean now) just like Dr who I say.
So I trust my instincts. I don't like being told what to do , I'm an antiestablishment BORE !
There's a Milan Kundera book I read years ago that helped me grow and get through some tough times. If I remember corectly there was a romantic/ EMOTIONAL thread in the story with references to emotional pain being felt in the stomach. Of course, butterflies and knots . This is where we feel the pain no ? Ok it consumes the mind too but a bit of both.
Trust your GUT feeling , your instincts . I AM the doctor . I AM the Wizard , the wise one.
My gut feeling before this all started led me follow my own path and do WHAT I WANT to do . It's a bit of a personal mantra . No I haven't been hiking through the Himalayas or riding rapids in NZ.
If doing WHAT YOU WANT Is nothing, then so be it .....
What do "YOU" WANT to do....?
Back to T for a minute...... Ok so I have this mantra , I talk to my hands (people think I'M the mad one so let's reassure them
) .... I'm doing what I want ! I'M DOING WHAT I WANT !
Ok so this is my mantra anyway , but I'll lay this about a little more , bear with me.
Don't get me wrong I was weeping in someone's arms just the other day , in a good way I guess , all the LOVE on this forum left me somewhat whelmed ,add to that my new found pesky shadow.
Ok I'm still going on about it ,bu t as a kid it wasn't easy at home , I could have emotionally destroyed, but somehow thanks to my own SUPERPOWERS. And the LOVE of others I did what I wanted to do.
After some thought last week. I've kind of attached the T to the negative stuff that was going on back in the day. I try to see T as no more an Emotional threat than that which bore down on me then.
My SUPERPOWER subconscious helped me back then, I had dreams of flying (really flying ,, absolute potency !) it's only recently I realised how this connected with the Emotional bully in my waking life.
So back to the very little I've read about the neuroplasticity whatever you want to call it , I'm a BELIEVER!
Just a GUT INSTINCT. My 10,000 yr old subconscious instinctive mind helped me then, why shouldn't it now ?
Gonna wrap this up soon.... Just want to add. I've read no self help manuals apart the TAO of pooh way back ( The drip drip drip of wisdom), I've broken down in front of the Doc years ago but never had. AD's or counselling and my name is Shaun by the way. I have zero social interaction online , it's only the inspiration I've found here that has compelled to compose this .... This ...thanks for reading.
After lurking for a few weeks , the best info I've seen that works for me are rooted in the neroplasticity role....
Excuse me , I'm no certified life guru, well no more than any other 49 yr old who's had a bit of life experience, a little story to tell...
I know very little about the neuroscience just my own experiences that have helped me through the ups n downs.
This is without a doubt an EMOTIONAL journey / challenge.
I tell my son I'm 10,000 yrs old( he understands what I mean now) just like Dr who I say.
So I trust my instincts. I don't like being told what to do , I'm an antiestablishment BORE !
There's a Milan Kundera book I read years ago that helped me grow and get through some tough times. If I remember corectly there was a romantic/ EMOTIONAL thread in the story with references to emotional pain being felt in the stomach. Of course, butterflies and knots . This is where we feel the pain no ? Ok it consumes the mind too but a bit of both.
Trust your GUT feeling , your instincts . I AM the doctor . I AM the Wizard , the wise one.
My gut feeling before this all started led me follow my own path and do WHAT I WANT to do . It's a bit of a personal mantra . No I haven't been hiking through the Himalayas or riding rapids in NZ.
If doing WHAT YOU WANT Is nothing, then so be it .....
What do "YOU" WANT to do....?
Back to T for a minute...... Ok so I have this mantra , I talk to my hands (people think I'M the mad one so let's reassure them
) .... I'm doing what I want ! I'M DOING WHAT I WANT !Ok so this is my mantra anyway , but I'll lay this about a little more , bear with me.
Don't get me wrong I was weeping in someone's arms just the other day , in a good way I guess , all the LOVE on this forum left me somewhat whelmed ,add to that my new found pesky shadow.
Ok I'm still going on about it ,bu t as a kid it wasn't easy at home , I could have emotionally destroyed, but somehow thanks to my own SUPERPOWERS. And the LOVE of others I did what I wanted to do.
After some thought last week. I've kind of attached the T to the negative stuff that was going on back in the day. I try to see T as no more an Emotional threat than that which bore down on me then.
My SUPERPOWER subconscious helped me back then, I had dreams of flying (really flying ,, absolute potency !) it's only recently I realised how this connected with the Emotional bully in my waking life.
So back to the very little I've read about the neuroplasticity whatever you want to call it , I'm a BELIEVER!
Just a GUT INSTINCT. My 10,000 yr old subconscious instinctive mind helped me then, why shouldn't it now ?
Gonna wrap this up soon.... Just want to add. I've read no self help manuals apart the TAO of pooh way back ( The drip drip drip of wisdom), I've broken down in front of the Doc years ago but never had. AD's or counselling and my name is Shaun by the way. I have zero social interaction online , it's only the inspiration I've found here that has compelled to compose this .... This ...thanks for reading.
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