Hey Victor, you should come for support , especially if nobody arounds you is going through the same. I understand as well what insomnia is. You really, really should adress that. Not only because we generally feel better when we sleep , but in cases like your and mine - when T came out of nowhere, I believe long term sleeping problems are one of the cause. I had been having regualar sleepless nights for around two years before I got T one morning and I'm pretty sure it had sth to do with insomnia. Not to mention the devastating impact of insomnia on the whole organism. I sleep very well recently but only because I have no job, which sucks, but when I'm not stressed about getting up in the morning and I don't have anything important to do , I sleep just fine. IT's enough though that sth important is suppose to happen the next day and instantly I have trouble sleeping = it's mostly stress. Sometimes it's just neighbours or noises in the neigbourhood, noises in the flat, noises in the pipes, problems with leaking sinuses or just not sleeping for no good reason. Every day there may be another thing that just ruins my sleep. After a longer while of such reality my brain went nuts I guess . Needless to say at the beginning, apart from all the reason above, it was also impossible to sleep because of T, whereas I was already so exhausted with insomnia for so many other reasons. Life is beautiful, right? Only last few months I've been able to sleep deep enough regardless of the noises around, but since the onset of T I haven't slept one night without masking, it's impossible. When sometimes my player stops at night I will wake up to my T. If the player works fine, ( I listen to ambient music ) , then I sleep the whole night through . I also had a period of taking plenty of different pills for sleeping, not benzo though. Now I sleep without them.