*Long post warning*
Yo yo yo,
25-year-old dude here from the UK just beginning my 5th week of tinnitus.
So, the story so far...
I've always been conscious of getting tinnitus, not to the point of paranoia, but I was mindful at concerts and wearing ear plugs (especially when going to see bands like Dinosaur Jr, good lord those guys are loud), but as I'm sure most of us have I've probably done things like a bit of sanding/drilling without even thinking about ear protection, or had my headphones up a little too loud at some points.
I've also always had exceptional hearing.
So when did I notice it?
One night whilst in my workshop (soldering, not doing anything loud), I had the fan on & was watching something on Netflix on the iPad. I heard what I thought was a buzzing/ringing from the fan (or like those noises that certain adaptors make when plugged in), it was only when I checked for those things and then pressed against my ear that I realised the noise was in my head.
Immediately I went into panic mode.
I don't really know what 'kickstarted' my tinnitus, because within a short period of about 2 months several things happened that could all be contributing factors, including:
So, there above you have a plethora of possible contributory factors...
The first 3 weeks I actually didn't pay much attention, the initial panic when I first discovered it went down pretty quickly because there was a bit of a flu/virus floating about our house and I thought that could be contributing to it since my nose/throat/chest were also affected. And apart from anything else it was actually something I couldn't really hear 90% of the time, only if I was sat in a completely silent room or if I covered my ears to block all external sound.
However, the 4th week was a real struggle. For whatever reason my anxiety decided to get the better of me, leading to a couple of full-on breakdowns/panic attacks. Which obviously left me fixating on the tinnitus, starting that infamous vicious cycle. It was during this week that I started to notice hyperacusis too, I'm not sure if it was always there since the tinnitus started or if I was just so fixated on everything I heard being 'the noise' that it heightened the other symptoms.
I went to the docs, where they initially referred me to the nurse practitioner, who was absolutely useless. She saw me for a total of 5 minutes, took a cursory glance in my ears to check for an ear wax build up (of which there wasn't any) before searching up tinnitus & hyperacusis and saying 'oh you probably have this, sorry I can't be of more help'. Classic NHS.
I didn't think this was good enough, I thought surely we should try and find out a possible cause, because a posse cause could lead to a possible solution. So I rebooked and went to see my actual GP. Who has referred me to an ENT at the hospital, of which I'm still awaiting a date for.
I decided to pay for a private ENT consultation to speed things up slightly, which I went to on Saturday. He was somewhat reassuring in that after I explained the loudness (or lack thereof) of the noise and other symptoms, that my tinnitus is highly likely to be temporary and should dissipate on it's own after a while. He did a couple of tests on my hearing for a burst ear drum and any hearing loss, all of which pointed to nothing being wrong and that I have well above average hearing for a 25-year-old male. He also prescribed some Betahistine which is usually for vertigo in patients with Meniere's disease, I'm only on the 3rd day of taking this so I can't really draw any conclusions yet, he did say it may not help but was worth trying as I had also been noticing an increased number of headrushes and wobbly legs during those 4 weeks. Which again could be contributed to a deficiency of some kind/anaemia etc.
I have since come to realise it is actually fairly common to have 3-6 month bouts of tinnitus that just goes away. I'm hoping that may well be the case here. As and when the NHS referral comes through I'll likely still go to this just for a second opinion, the doc did say it could even be something like a benign tumour in the neck/ear area. Unlikely I think but I'm not going to rule it out without even checking.
I'm in a much better place this week after reading some of the success stories on here.
The 'good' news...
Over these weeks, it doesn't ever really seem to have gotten any worse.
Compared to some of the stories I've read, my tinnitus appears to be very mild. Which is another thing that gives me hope it has a higher chance of going away and/or me just getting use to it to the point that it may as well be gone. There's almost a 0% chance of me hearing it outside of the house, almost any kind of ambient noise is enough to drown it out (i.e. the distant motorway, a mild breeze, my idling car engine etc), which is good because it means that a good 80-90% of my day I know I won't hear it, even being in a very standard quiet office environment like mine is enough, although that hasn't stopped me thinking about it, which I'm trying to work on...easier said than done when you're a generally anxious person to begin with.
I've been masking the noise at night as I find that is really the only time its noticeable, a fan/the TV is more than enough to drown it out. Obviously if I roll on my side and my ear is on the pillow its there, but it is by no means deafeningly loud, there's never been a point where its drowning out external sound. The hyperacusis also seems to be improving on last week.
What am I attempting to do to help?
I'll try and be somewhat active on here and post updates, maybe weekly, who knows. I'll have to see what kind of mood I'm in as and when it comes. I'm sure there will still be down days, but I'm fairly hopeful things will improve over the next few months, worst case scenario I just sleep with the fan on for the rest of my life...
Yo yo yo,
25-year-old dude here from the UK just beginning my 5th week of tinnitus.
So, the story so far...
I've always been conscious of getting tinnitus, not to the point of paranoia, but I was mindful at concerts and wearing ear plugs (especially when going to see bands like Dinosaur Jr, good lord those guys are loud), but as I'm sure most of us have I've probably done things like a bit of sanding/drilling without even thinking about ear protection, or had my headphones up a little too loud at some points.
I've also always had exceptional hearing.
So when did I notice it?
One night whilst in my workshop (soldering, not doing anything loud), I had the fan on & was watching something on Netflix on the iPad. I heard what I thought was a buzzing/ringing from the fan (or like those noises that certain adaptors make when plugged in), it was only when I checked for those things and then pressed against my ear that I realised the noise was in my head.
Immediately I went into panic mode.
I don't really know what 'kickstarted' my tinnitus, because within a short period of about 2 months several things happened that could all be contributing factors, including:
- Trying out a vegetarian diet (that I'd been following for about 5-6 weeks and have since stopped) and not really doing it all that well, to the point where I think there maybe some kind of deficiency.
- Starting a new job in London the 2 weeks before (I've only worked locally before so it was a bit of a stressful time figuring out how the transition was going to go).
- Just coming out the other side of picking up a load of freelance work and an increased time spent doing work on my side business on top of my full time job, which had me up until late multiple nights in a row for over a month, 1am was not an unusual time for me to finish, this left me feeling understandably fatigued.
- Going to the first rehearsal with a new band I'd joined (guitarist) the week before (and didn't have ear protection for), we played loud, but not blisteringly loud, no more than what you'd hear at a regular pub gig on a Friday night every week, nor do I recall any ringing immediately after the event. I continued weekly rehearsals up until last week with ear protection, which hasn't made anything worse, but after last week (which I'll get to in a second) I've put things on hold, for both the tinnitus' sake and my own anxiety.
- I've also suffered with generalised anxiety, low self-esteem, bouts of depression and always managed to find something to stress myself out about since being a teenager, which I believe are the results from being bullied as a teenager for being slightly 'overweight' which led to suffering with anorexia/bulimia for the best part of 5 years.
So, there above you have a plethora of possible contributory factors...
The first 3 weeks I actually didn't pay much attention, the initial panic when I first discovered it went down pretty quickly because there was a bit of a flu/virus floating about our house and I thought that could be contributing to it since my nose/throat/chest were also affected. And apart from anything else it was actually something I couldn't really hear 90% of the time, only if I was sat in a completely silent room or if I covered my ears to block all external sound.
However, the 4th week was a real struggle. For whatever reason my anxiety decided to get the better of me, leading to a couple of full-on breakdowns/panic attacks. Which obviously left me fixating on the tinnitus, starting that infamous vicious cycle. It was during this week that I started to notice hyperacusis too, I'm not sure if it was always there since the tinnitus started or if I was just so fixated on everything I heard being 'the noise' that it heightened the other symptoms.
I went to the docs, where they initially referred me to the nurse practitioner, who was absolutely useless. She saw me for a total of 5 minutes, took a cursory glance in my ears to check for an ear wax build up (of which there wasn't any) before searching up tinnitus & hyperacusis and saying 'oh you probably have this, sorry I can't be of more help'. Classic NHS.
I didn't think this was good enough, I thought surely we should try and find out a possible cause, because a posse cause could lead to a possible solution. So I rebooked and went to see my actual GP. Who has referred me to an ENT at the hospital, of which I'm still awaiting a date for.
I decided to pay for a private ENT consultation to speed things up slightly, which I went to on Saturday. He was somewhat reassuring in that after I explained the loudness (or lack thereof) of the noise and other symptoms, that my tinnitus is highly likely to be temporary and should dissipate on it's own after a while. He did a couple of tests on my hearing for a burst ear drum and any hearing loss, all of which pointed to nothing being wrong and that I have well above average hearing for a 25-year-old male. He also prescribed some Betahistine which is usually for vertigo in patients with Meniere's disease, I'm only on the 3rd day of taking this so I can't really draw any conclusions yet, he did say it may not help but was worth trying as I had also been noticing an increased number of headrushes and wobbly legs during those 4 weeks. Which again could be contributed to a deficiency of some kind/anaemia etc.
I have since come to realise it is actually fairly common to have 3-6 month bouts of tinnitus that just goes away. I'm hoping that may well be the case here. As and when the NHS referral comes through I'll likely still go to this just for a second opinion, the doc did say it could even be something like a benign tumour in the neck/ear area. Unlikely I think but I'm not going to rule it out without even checking.
I'm in a much better place this week after reading some of the success stories on here.
The 'good' news...
Over these weeks, it doesn't ever really seem to have gotten any worse.
Compared to some of the stories I've read, my tinnitus appears to be very mild. Which is another thing that gives me hope it has a higher chance of going away and/or me just getting use to it to the point that it may as well be gone. There's almost a 0% chance of me hearing it outside of the house, almost any kind of ambient noise is enough to drown it out (i.e. the distant motorway, a mild breeze, my idling car engine etc), which is good because it means that a good 80-90% of my day I know I won't hear it, even being in a very standard quiet office environment like mine is enough, although that hasn't stopped me thinking about it, which I'm trying to work on...easier said than done when you're a generally anxious person to begin with.
I've been masking the noise at night as I find that is really the only time its noticeable, a fan/the TV is more than enough to drown it out. Obviously if I roll on my side and my ear is on the pillow its there, but it is by no means deafeningly loud, there's never been a point where its drowning out external sound. The hyperacusis also seems to be improving on last week.
What am I attempting to do to help?
- I've stopped the band stuff for now, not only to avoid being exposed to loud environments but because I can't really get into the right mood to do it at the moment. When I think about it, I've only actually been away from that source of loud noise for just over a week (we had 4 rehearsals and a gig in a pub over the 5 weeks so far), so I'm hoping to maybe see a difference in the coming weeks as I think if that first practice was the main initiating factor, that continuing to go to the rehearsals, even with ear protection, could have been 'maintaining' it.
- Being very cautious of the level of my headphones, barely turning them past a quarter volume. I've found even that is enough to remove the tinnitus completely when I've got music on. Music is actually one of the most helpful things I've found.
- Trying to avoid unnecessarily loud situations, that could aggravate it. I'm not actively going out wearing earplugs everywhere as I think that will only make things more sensitive to the H when I take them off.
- Taking B12, Zinc, Iron & Omega 3 supplements, and beginning to eat meat again for the last 4-5 days, this is kind of my long-shot but aside from the tinnitus I've generally been feeling rough/fatigued and am super pale at the moment, so it seems to be helping overall, whether it'll help the tinnitus is yet to be established.
- Generally trying to chill out more, if one silver lining can be taken from this whole experience so far its that I'm trying to take more time out to spend with my wonderful fiancé and our 8 month old. She has been an absolute rock for me during this period and its made me realise how much I like family time, I'd been in a rut of working non-stop for months and it seems to be gradually lowering my stress levels.
- Thinking back to a few years ago when I had some pretty serious knee reconstruction surgery, I completely destroyed my ACL and meniscus cartilage, was in a locked leg brace for six weeks and took a good 9-12 months to recover and build back up the atrophied leg. The feelings I had then were frighteningly similar to how I felt last week, I remember thinking I'd never be happy again and that my leg was permanently ruined. But just over 2 years later, whilst my knee still gives me a bit of stiffness every now and then, I'm able to walk, run and leg press 280kg for reps, which is more than I could do before. The point being that even if my tinnitus stays exactly as it is now and doesn't improve at all, I think its manageable pretty easily, but I think generally from what I've seen, mild tinnitus does tend to improve with time and the right precautions/mindset.
I'll try and be somewhat active on here and post updates, maybe weekly, who knows. I'll have to see what kind of mood I'm in as and when it comes. I'm sure there will still be down days, but I'm fairly hopeful things will improve over the next few months, worst case scenario I just sleep with the fan on for the rest of my life...
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