MemberHi,
My name is Edu, I live in Madrid with my girlfriend, I am 34, engineer and have been several months in both T and TT. I have read a lot of info in this site but almost this is my first time writing (only once I wrote that I was trying to participate in AM-101 trials).
I was a very happy person last year. A small promotion at work, plans to get married, plans with my friends...
On December the 6th, a very common day, I started hearing a high pitched sound in my left ear. I thought it was a kind of ear infection and that it would fade by itself. Some days later I visited my GP and she mentioned to me a new word: "acúfeno" (Spanish for tinnitus). When I got home I googled it and could not believe this was going to be chronic. I visited an ENT doctor who told me it would likely disappear, but I could not believe him. He told me I had hearing loss in high frequencies, but he told me not to worry.
Those first weeks were horrible, I was a wreck, crying, panic attacks, starting to consider the big "S"... I lost 8 kilos in one month. If it hadn't been for my girlfriend, family and friends... I looked for any solution, no matter how crazy it was. Homeopathy, acupuncture, any magic medicines or patches, etc. I read a huge amount of information here in TT and other sites in Spanish.
In mid January, 1.5 months in, I started feeling better three days in a row for the first time. I felt extremely happy. Then, I received a call from AM-101 trials. I was rejected. It did not mind at all to me (because I started believing in habituation). But the doctor also explained to me how worrying my audiometric was and that I should avoid any noise, protect my ears always and even consider to leave the city. I went down for the second time and felt very depressed.
I needed help and visited a psychiatrist. He gave me ADs and sent me to a psycologist. I have been three months taking ADs and doing CBT since then. I take care of my hearing a lot. I always take with me my earplugs and avoid noisy environments. I listened watch TV and to music in a low volume (spent more than two months without hearing any music!). I stopped using headphones except sometimes with white noise and with very low volume. Most of the days I can be in silence without being nervous. I most of the days am feeling good. I have some less good days, like today, but have the hope that I am better tomorrow. It looks (fingers crossed) that the trend is that number of bad days are reducing.
I always hear my T because it is high-pitch and I had a big hearing loss at those frequencies (~65dB). It is similar to a 6000 Hz tone. Some days its volume is low and I can be in silence with no problems. Others, like today, it is much higher and I hear white noise at a low volume.
My life, little by little, seems to go back to normal. Hope this trend continues and to start giving some support to people in need, like I was and still am.
Edu
My name is Edu, I live in Madrid with my girlfriend, I am 34, engineer and have been several months in both T and TT. I have read a lot of info in this site but almost this is my first time writing (only once I wrote that I was trying to participate in AM-101 trials).
I was a very happy person last year. A small promotion at work, plans to get married, plans with my friends...
On December the 6th, a very common day, I started hearing a high pitched sound in my left ear. I thought it was a kind of ear infection and that it would fade by itself. Some days later I visited my GP and she mentioned to me a new word: "acúfeno" (Spanish for tinnitus). When I got home I googled it and could not believe this was going to be chronic. I visited an ENT doctor who told me it would likely disappear, but I could not believe him. He told me I had hearing loss in high frequencies, but he told me not to worry.
Those first weeks were horrible, I was a wreck, crying, panic attacks, starting to consider the big "S"... I lost 8 kilos in one month. If it hadn't been for my girlfriend, family and friends... I looked for any solution, no matter how crazy it was. Homeopathy, acupuncture, any magic medicines or patches, etc. I read a huge amount of information here in TT and other sites in Spanish.
In mid January, 1.5 months in, I started feeling better three days in a row for the first time. I felt extremely happy. Then, I received a call from AM-101 trials. I was rejected. It did not mind at all to me (because I started believing in habituation). But the doctor also explained to me how worrying my audiometric was and that I should avoid any noise, protect my ears always and even consider to leave the city. I went down for the second time and felt very depressed.
I needed help and visited a psychiatrist. He gave me ADs and sent me to a psycologist. I have been three months taking ADs and doing CBT since then. I take care of my hearing a lot. I always take with me my earplugs and avoid noisy environments. I listened watch TV and to music in a low volume (spent more than two months without hearing any music!). I stopped using headphones except sometimes with white noise and with very low volume. Most of the days I can be in silence without being nervous. I most of the days am feeling good. I have some less good days, like today, but have the hope that I am better tomorrow. It looks (fingers crossed) that the trend is that number of bad days are reducing.
I always hear my T because it is high-pitch and I had a big hearing loss at those frequencies (~65dB). It is similar to a 6000 Hz tone. Some days its volume is low and I can be in silence with no problems. Others, like today, it is much higher and I hear white noise at a low volume.
My life, little by little, seems to go back to normal. Hope this trend continues and to start giving some support to people in need, like I was and still am.
Edu
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