I've had T since 18 (27 now) and it got worse last year from a short exposure to a wood saw. Clearly, my ears are damaged badly. No hearing loss detectable so it's probably hidden or above 8k.
I've struggled for over a year, had noise make it worse, then got better, than worse a little bit and stayed, things around 100db or 105db type of stuff.
But, 5 days ago I bumped into my wood mat which was rolled up and sitting vertical against wall. It fell and made a sound so loud I couldn't believe it. Only a second of sound, but it was loud (114db I recorded it with meter later 2 times with muffs on) since my T was worse. After it happened I stayed home but next day and following days I wen't out and swam laps, which probably wasn't good (especially since a large jumbo jet went over my head at 1400 feet yesterday which was loud) idea.
My T was even worse yesterday after swimming and today just as bad. My ears are louder and I can't believe I just have to sit here and hope for the best. I've tried going back on NAC, Magnesium chelate, taking camu camu for vit. C, tumeric for antiinflammatory properties and a B complex, but I this is all placebo I think and I only do it just to do something.
I think my ears are so damaged and are so sensitive to loud noises that it can't take much anymore. It only took a simple 10 seconds of wood saw outside my window a year ago to make my mild T worse...so I guess it's not unfathomable to think 114db even at a measly one second won't cause worsening.
I just can't believe there's nothing to do but wait. Is there truly nothing one can do after a trauma where there is REAL noticeable change, not anxiety...no, real change...there's nothing? Although my ears weren't great before I was able to get by and the sound and pitch were at a place I could almost...accept. Now, because of a loud trauma suddenly...it's gone. I'm sure 5 days isn't a whole lot of time, but every day you want to kill yourself and just angry and bitter makes it seem a lifetime....I just can't believe there's nothing out there to maybe assist with any type of healing no matter how small after a trauma.
I've struggled for over a year, had noise make it worse, then got better, than worse a little bit and stayed, things around 100db or 105db type of stuff.
But, 5 days ago I bumped into my wood mat which was rolled up and sitting vertical against wall. It fell and made a sound so loud I couldn't believe it. Only a second of sound, but it was loud (114db I recorded it with meter later 2 times with muffs on) since my T was worse. After it happened I stayed home but next day and following days I wen't out and swam laps, which probably wasn't good (especially since a large jumbo jet went over my head at 1400 feet yesterday which was loud) idea.
My T was even worse yesterday after swimming and today just as bad. My ears are louder and I can't believe I just have to sit here and hope for the best. I've tried going back on NAC, Magnesium chelate, taking camu camu for vit. C, tumeric for antiinflammatory properties and a B complex, but I this is all placebo I think and I only do it just to do something.
I think my ears are so damaged and are so sensitive to loud noises that it can't take much anymore. It only took a simple 10 seconds of wood saw outside my window a year ago to make my mild T worse...so I guess it's not unfathomable to think 114db even at a measly one second won't cause worsening.
I just can't believe there's nothing to do but wait. Is there truly nothing one can do after a trauma where there is REAL noticeable change, not anxiety...no, real change...there's nothing? Although my ears weren't great before I was able to get by and the sound and pitch were at a place I could almost...accept. Now, because of a loud trauma suddenly...it's gone. I'm sure 5 days isn't a whole lot of time, but every day you want to kill yourself and just angry and bitter makes it seem a lifetime....I just can't believe there's nothing out there to maybe assist with any type of healing no matter how small after a trauma.