Tinnitus Post #2
@Sam Bridge This asshole got so close to my ear, because I was giving him my back, since I was watching a local final soccer match over at an acquaintance's place with some other people, and the asshole crept from behind me and cupped his hands around his mouth and screamed, "Goaaal!!!!!" with all his myth right into my left ear. As I said, I was with my back turned, so I didn't even see him coming. I felt dizzy and stunned, I couldn't do anything...
This picture was taken by what was supposedly a friend of mine, but although now that I ask him to be my witness for the trial. He now claims he didn't hear anything. Although this photo was taken by him minutes before the idiot yelled into my ear. Yes, it's the guy with the cap. I kept telling him to stop bothering me and stuff, but since he's very problematic and violent, I didn't want to get involved in a fight with him. He just wouldn't understand that I was extremely fed up with his bullying, and bad taste jokes. He would stop, but minutes later he would continue to pull his pranks. I was sitting down in the same place that you can see in this photo above, but looking towards the other direction to where the screen was.
What really gets me is that I have all the evidence to prove it, but since I have no witnesses, it's like if it had not happened. The law here in México is a joke, I'm starting to believe justice doesn't exist here. Impunity is enjoyed by all evildoers left and right here. Cops are bribed all the time. Policemen here accept $5.00 US dollar bribes for things you wouldn't believe. I'm not saying that currently in my particular case, any law enforcer has sold out yet, but I already have faced a ton of negligence of just trying to file my complaint and local Public Ministry. Again I feel hopeless in this legal system. It's like a bad dream I wish I had never had. Why did I even attend that get together to watch a sport that I could give a hot less about? I wish I could go back in time, but don't we all?
Although I have both nationalities, American and Mexican, and have lived in both countries on and off, and in other countries like Germany as well. As much as I think México has a ton to offer to the world, I would still have to say that anybody who is against Trump border tightening policies, I bet has never lived in México. Or at the very least hasn't had a taste of what the real México is like. If you're cool with laws existing and seldomly being implemented, then México is your promised land. Honestly, I bet this would have not flied in the US.
I even have the "WhatsApp" conversation messages where I confront this dude about the situation, where I'm telling him that he has to man up to the responsibility of his actions. And even though I've got him to admit it, I'm still worried that the law here is really not going to do anything, forget about him getting any sort of punishment. I wish I also was a lawyer, to better defend myself and not have to worry about the lawyer selling out. They do it all the time here. What really got me, was what the lawyer I've been contacting told me, "People who lose limbs here in accidents by the fault of other people (here in México), are usually offered around $5,000 US dollars as settlement offers for their lose." That's bullshit, people just don't know how crude life is here.
So I have to say this, "Buy Mexican, when well you feel like promoting injustice. Buy Mexican, when you feel like promoting slave like labor. Buy Mexican when you feel corruption is the way to go. Buy Mexican when you would like your country to be run by criminals, that's what most politicians here are like anyway. Support Mexico when you believe journalist killings is what freedom of speech should be like." Sometimes I feel like a revolution must occur to stop this nonsense of a country, but people here are proud of being able to get off the easy way, and it's like a vicious cycle. I believe that's a reason why things don't progress here.
The idiot even told me, while he laughed, "Were not in the US, you think the law is going to do anything to me?", for which I have no more comments to say. But deep down inside me, both my Mexican and American soul, feel like I can't let him get away with it, even if what he says is indeed true, at least not without a fight, which I still owe him. I don't know where this will end. I feel overwhelmed.
I truly agree with what
@Rosemerry mentions about what Michael J. Fox said about his feelings about Parkinson's disease, where he said that those of us who have the condition are the actual experts in many cases, not the doctors. There's no doubt about that. And hit exactly home, in terms of how I feel about being defended by a lawyer in court for this Tinnitus injury, especially when the lawyer doesn't even understand the condition or what living with this symptom is like. How can I expect him to stand a fight over something he doesn't even comprehend? At that rate, I kind of get the feeling that I would be better off defending myself in court, I'm already deep into this mess anyway.
Don't get me started with the doctors. One of them told me to just try to ignore it, to not think about it, to forgive the guy who did this to me. I really wonder how he would react to just half the pitch of my ringing lingering around in his head for just half a day, just to see if his opinion would change.
Not to get anybody on the down side, but another one of the doctors who I went to, also has Tinnitus, and on her website she claims to be a Tinnitus expert. So when I asked her how has that gone for her, she replied, oh I still have it, I just got used to it now. After hearing that I just felt torn apart, and wanted to leave. By the way, yep, she's the one telling me to take 60 mg of Prednisone and tapering down the intake for 12 days. I will blame it on night, and consider her to be the exception to J. Fox's rule of thumb.
After almost a week of 3 hours of sleep per day, I'm starting to consider that poison, I mean Prednisone. In actuality she said Prednisone had a 3 month window to take effect when getting Tinnitus, but that only 1 out of 4 patients showed improvement, according to the studies she was basing her findings, so she said.
I know this message maybe went down on a diverging path to what I had initially intended it to be about. At the very least it got my mind somewhat distracted and it made me blow off some heat of my shoulders. If I offended anybody in anyway with my views, I can't help it, I feel the need to question things. I do it all the time, I can't help but being dead honest about stuff. If there's something I hate, it's people not telling the facts, even if they hurt. I don't appreciate being sold fake promises, I don't think anybody does.
On the positive side, my mom called me today, and told me she read an article about this guy who was going mad due to Tinnitus, and that after years of researching on his own, he made his own concoctions that included turmeric and ginger, and claimed to have vanquished the killer "T". My mom is my heart, she gives me strength as well as a reason to have hope in humanity. I wish I had never told her how bad I'm taking this Tinnitus crap. I hate it when I see her get sad because of stupid shit I say about things that happen to me.