Hey Robert!
I have had a similar experience regarding meditation. Since I incurred a head injury last winter, I have found myself struggling with/unable to relax, focus, meditate, and do yoga. I have been doing readings about mindfulness and meditation, which is helping me. I have also incorporated aromatherapy into my daily life and daily practice. Using essential oils remind more frequently to breathe...and breathe more deeply. I agree that it's all about the breathe! The more I read and the more I experience stressful (or every day) life situations
the breathe becomes more and more important. I keep a little container of a smell that I like in my purse and on my night stand. I have found this very useful!!!
@Beste , have you tried incorporating mindfulness activities throughout your day? Do you have a morning ritual that can help you snap out of it or calm you down that way you don't have to wake up already stressin'...If you do wake up stressing out maybe having a visual/tacticle/audible reminder can help you remember to breathe, and not go to that mental space of OMG.
OMG was how I was waking up for 5 months...but having a morning ritual that helps me stay chilled out has helped me to feel more hopeful and less freaked out. My morning rituals that I look forward to are:
1) making a cup of coffee (cuz I want and love it!)
2) light stretching (which encourages the breathe)
3) Stepping outside to see what the weather is like...I take a few deep breathes when I do that
Thank you for the beautiful thought, Robert!