Hi. Gonna keep it somewhat short since I'm typing from my phone, but feel free to ask questions.
First got in in 2008 from a show. Loud and intrusive ringing and hiss. ENT said ears fine and hearing great. Typical tinnitus death spiral everyone is familiar with. I got to a point where I accepted it wasn't going anywhere some months down the road. Started doing exactly what I did before getting it. Started having those good days that people talk about, still was annoyed by tinnitus. Kept busy and went out and had fun. Moved a few months later. Still getting bugged now an then, but it didn't really bug me much. A few months later, I realized, or felt like it was so much lower. I stopped monitoring it months ago, so I didn't give it much thought, as I was already kind of done having a reaction to it. Life was already back to normal so it being gone wasn't a huge deal.
Fine for years, then accidental sounds exposure made me go back to square one. Repeat tinnitus hell spiral. Once again, after months in the rut, I just said fuck it and did as much as I could to have fun and live like before. Got used to it again and bored of the sound, and about 1.5 years after, it seems lower, I couldn't hear it over the tv, but absolutely could on both onsets.
06/2016: I guess stress did it this time. Arguably worse than the first two times. Two months and one day I got to the point where I just stopped fighting it and made myself continue living my life. Very soon after, like just a few weeks, tinnitus seemed low again. Forgot before the Fall.
4th bout summer 2018: family death, financial stress, noticed my tinnitus one night and just locked on it. After a few days, was loud as fuck. Repeat a few weeks/months of doom and gloom and I accepted I'd probably have it forever. Stopped hoping it would disappear. Got on with life again and made myself stop monitoring it. Was quiet by end of September. As of the beginning of last month, I was laying down in my room with nothing on, even a fan, and I could barely hear it with my head on the pillow.
Had a bad allergy reaction a few days after Christmas and and had a long weird fleeting tinnitus episode one night while reading. Suddenly got focused on it and wondered if it was louder or I had just forgotten about it for the longest time. Fast forward a to 3 days and I was a wreck. Had barely eaten since, bowel water, cant sleep for more than an hour a day. Wondering again if those other times I dealt with it were just dream, but I feel like each time I had a bout of it, I would get to a point where I would realize all the internet searching and focusing on it were having more of an impact on me than the tinnitus itself. Each time I got out of it, I remember having a moment where I refused to go on this site, stopped hoping for a cure, and just carried on despite it. I'm focusing on relaxing myself. Had a full body message yesterday and afterward it was screaming, but I didn't really care. Had multiple moments today where I wasn't thinking about it at all. Still haven't broke my tinnitus research addiction yet, and will stick around for a bit, but some time down the road, I'm going to disappear and stop looking shit up here.
I wonder if habituation is the actual road to tinnitus fading away. Anyone have any input? Do you think the people on here that refuse habituation and are on here constantly are keeping themselves locked in on it and preventing them from getting better? Even the good moderators who are here helping people? Have any of them taken a long break from the site and seen any difference, either reduction in their tinnitus volume or their reaction to it? Looking forward to hearing from you!!
First got in in 2008 from a show. Loud and intrusive ringing and hiss. ENT said ears fine and hearing great. Typical tinnitus death spiral everyone is familiar with. I got to a point where I accepted it wasn't going anywhere some months down the road. Started doing exactly what I did before getting it. Started having those good days that people talk about, still was annoyed by tinnitus. Kept busy and went out and had fun. Moved a few months later. Still getting bugged now an then, but it didn't really bug me much. A few months later, I realized, or felt like it was so much lower. I stopped monitoring it months ago, so I didn't give it much thought, as I was already kind of done having a reaction to it. Life was already back to normal so it being gone wasn't a huge deal.
Fine for years, then accidental sounds exposure made me go back to square one. Repeat tinnitus hell spiral. Once again, after months in the rut, I just said fuck it and did as much as I could to have fun and live like before. Got used to it again and bored of the sound, and about 1.5 years after, it seems lower, I couldn't hear it over the tv, but absolutely could on both onsets.
06/2016: I guess stress did it this time. Arguably worse than the first two times. Two months and one day I got to the point where I just stopped fighting it and made myself continue living my life. Very soon after, like just a few weeks, tinnitus seemed low again. Forgot before the Fall.
4th bout summer 2018: family death, financial stress, noticed my tinnitus one night and just locked on it. After a few days, was loud as fuck. Repeat a few weeks/months of doom and gloom and I accepted I'd probably have it forever. Stopped hoping it would disappear. Got on with life again and made myself stop monitoring it. Was quiet by end of September. As of the beginning of last month, I was laying down in my room with nothing on, even a fan, and I could barely hear it with my head on the pillow.
Had a bad allergy reaction a few days after Christmas and and had a long weird fleeting tinnitus episode one night while reading. Suddenly got focused on it and wondered if it was louder or I had just forgotten about it for the longest time. Fast forward a to 3 days and I was a wreck. Had barely eaten since, bowel water, cant sleep for more than an hour a day. Wondering again if those other times I dealt with it were just dream, but I feel like each time I had a bout of it, I would get to a point where I would realize all the internet searching and focusing on it were having more of an impact on me than the tinnitus itself. Each time I got out of it, I remember having a moment where I refused to go on this site, stopped hoping for a cure, and just carried on despite it. I'm focusing on relaxing myself. Had a full body message yesterday and afterward it was screaming, but I didn't really care. Had multiple moments today where I wasn't thinking about it at all. Still haven't broke my tinnitus research addiction yet, and will stick around for a bit, but some time down the road, I'm going to disappear and stop looking shit up here.
I wonder if habituation is the actual road to tinnitus fading away. Anyone have any input? Do you think the people on here that refuse habituation and are on here constantly are keeping themselves locked in on it and preventing them from getting better? Even the good moderators who are here helping people? Have any of them taken a long break from the site and seen any difference, either reduction in their tinnitus volume or their reaction to it? Looking forward to hearing from you!!