@New Guy thanks for your kind words.
Concerning my dogs, I still have difficulty forgiving myself for exposing them to these sound levels. I honestly don't know what I was thinking that day... I was extremely stressed, tired, passive and wanted to let off some steam I guess.
I will never know for sure if the doggo's got any permanent damage or tinnitus... but if they do, they deal with it a lot better than we do. They still play, relax and run just like before... so that makes it possible for me to let go of that guilt (most of the time).
Now, I read your still struggling. I would like to help if I can...
Everyone has their own path, but I can share what helped me. It was quite a journey.
I will give a few details on my survival tools... see what might work for you. I may turn this post into a success story one day... we'll see.
My tinnitus was hard enough to deal with... but it pushed me into a depression for about 4-5 months. Insomnia, shattered confidence, a gloomy outlook on life, stopping all outdoor activities (sports, social gatherings, cinema, concerts...)
Here are the things that helped me:
1) Reading about tinnitus. This personal story provided me with insight in the condition and gave me hope.
https://www.amazon.com/Rewiring-Tinnitus-Finally-Relief-Ringing/dp/1540483185/
2) Reading about depression: this amazingly written and at times funny book helped me realize that depression is a lie. It's your brain lying to you. Amazing read and very recognizable details!
https://www.amazon.com/Reasons-Stay-Alive-Matt-Haig/dp/1782115080/
3) Protecting my ears and knowing (and accepting) my limits: laying off listening to music through headphones, getting custom molded plugs when I go out to the cinema, gym or take (loud) public transport to work and using my amazing peltors for chores around the house. (Every household should own a pair of these babies).
http://elacin.com/
https://www.amazon.com/PELTOR-Ear-Muff-Headband-X5A/dp/B00BBCTQK6
Now I'm going to order another pair of molded plugs (-30 dB instead of -15dB) so I can attend a small concert without feeling anxious.
My limit without plugs is peaks of 90-95 dB. With my plugs of 15 dB I can withstand some peaks up to 110 dB but not more. If I go beyond, I end up with a spike. So a concert is off limits with these.
3,5) taking up sports again. I'm still a lot more sensitive to noise but these plugs allowed me to take up sports again. Gyms can be loud too. Working out slowly allowed me to rebuild a bit of confidence and wellbeing.
4) Meditation. It was the amazing headspace app that made it possible to stop my anxiety attacks and deep regret... through breathing and mindfullness. The life lessons you get when using this app really help put things in perspective. I worked my way through the following packs: anxiety, regret, sadness
https://www.headspace.com/
5) Acceptance and Commitment therapy. I was lucky enough that my employer offered me an ACT course. This is a new form of cognitive behavior therapy which uses more mindfullness techniques. It was in a group and talking about my struggles really helped. I could not keep talking about it to my partner, so this was an outlet. Other people struggled with other issues but still ACT techniques are general and worked for all of them. The mindfullness approach also was a nice tie-in to the headspace experience. The happiness trap was our guidebook.
https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/...ntroduction-acceptance-and-commitment-therapy
6) After ACT I wanted to keep doing something mindful so I signed up for Kundalini yoga at my local gym. An amazing teacher! Kundalini is weird... not only because it starts with some chanting (awkward!) but because it's main focus is on intense breathing exercises. pumping such amounts of oxygen into my brain somehow makes me feel calmer, focused, sharp and lowers my T for one or even two days.
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kundalini_yoga?wprov=sfti1
7) and last but not least... visiting this thread at tinnitustalk regularly gave me hope. Hope that one day, we may hear silence again and get a second chance. It's amazing work that's being done here. In January we will get an update on the results. These guys may very well succeed in reversing hearing loss!
https://www.tinnitustalk.com/thread...cs-—-hearing-loss-regeneration.18889/page-104
I think my post shows that the most important thing was to try and give tinnitus a place and come to terms with it (you don't have to like it). Reading and talking about it certainly helped. Finding ways to calm my nerves and let go of resistance was a challenge for me. The mindfullness route helped me succeed.
But what was essential was keeping busy.
Keeping your mind occupied with positive things and not dwelling on what you lost. As you can see I've been very busy... I had to... it was a survival strategy.
Scoring small victories helped me reclaim my life to the extent that is possible. And accept what is no longer possible.
I hope you find something useful in here!
I wish you the best!