I found myself with my back against the wall, after holding off all medication for 12 weeks with extreme T, H. I was so severely depressed an anxious I didn't have a choice. I took the Mitrazapine because I needed it. I took the Xanax because all I wanted was to die. Mitrazipine (30mg) makes me sleep, the dose was increased very slowly until I was able to finally sleep through the night. I took Xanax and the nausea an H disappeared.
I held of taking Mitrazapine too long. I was offered it four weeks earlier by my GP but refused because of fear of it making T. worse. But my depression in the mean time go so much worse because I wasn't sleeping and so terribly anxious.
It's been a struggle since. I feel better than I did in december. Am trying to taper Xanax and see what T. is still there. This is a scary proces. I now have completely quiet days sometimes but will how will it all go when I'm further down the road with tapering. My psychiatrist wants me to take 3 month to taper. Really, really slowly.
In hindsight I should have started the drugs earlier that could have saved me from some really traumatic experiences.