Living in Fear

[sandra72]

I live in fear. I have anxiety disorders, not because of the tinnitus but because the many things that happened in one year. In that year my tinnitus was not a problem for me anymore. I almost did not hear it anymore.

When everything came into calm, the panic started. I went on holiday because I thought it would give me peace but that was less true. I was nervous on vacation, a lot of noise, so a lot of fear. It has made my T worse in my other ear.

Every day when I get up I listen to how loud it is. I had not done this for a long time. I feel that I have to start over again.

People who have a loud T say you should not listen to it and just go on and you will not hear it. But how do you do this.

I am now on the point of my anti-depression psychologist, but I also find that scary. I just want to rest, no longer be afraid and think too much about the T.

I also have very low T days, then I only hear it in silence. Then the high sis tone is very far away. On those days I feel normal again, but I know that it can turn around the day after.

I feel that I am obsessed. I want to break this but just do not know how to do it.

Can you feel pressure in your ears because of fear and panic?

 

[glynis]

@sandra72 ,
As you have been through a lot you said,could you have a general anxiety disorder GAD and it's fuling your tinnitus?
Might be worth chatting to your doctor about it as it was just a thought as a family member is going through it.
Love glynis

 

[linearb]

Hi Sandra.

Living in fear as our base state is AWFUL

a simple mediative technique that's helped me a lot is to set a timer for 15 minutes, and then try to think in a loop, "I am safe. I am loved. I accept myself. I love or will learn to love myself"

This sounds cheesy as hell, but when you yet to do it you might be surprised how deep it runs. Like most mediation, the first thing that will happen is that you'll be very distracted and realize you're thinking about other things. That's fine, normal. When you realize you're distracted, just think "that's a distraction. I am safe. I am loved..."

This is very simple, but VERY hard to stick to. But if you can do this for even 15 mins, 5-7 times a week, I'd be surprised if you didn't end up thinking that it's doing something useful within 3-4 weeks.