- Nov 6, 2014
- 520
- 41
- Tinnitus Since
- 10/2014, worsened 5/2024
- Cause of Tinnitus
- Ear infection / Long-term Noise ; Acoustic Trauma
Hi all, I hope everyone is doing well.
I'm back because, unfortunately, I had a relapse of my tinnitus last month. I originally got tinnitus in October 2014, triggered by an ear infection and likely exacerbated by noise, having been a musician for several years, particularly during those years of drumming (bad idea). The positive side was that the severity had decreased in about a year, and within 5-10 years, it gradually disappeared to where I never noticed it. Back in 2015-2016, I was even a moderator here, which was a bright light in what was not a particularly good chapter in my life.
Unfortunately, I went to a concert in May, didn't wear ear protection (something I had grown accustomed to), and noticed ringing. By the time I got earplugs back in, it was too late. The month of May 2024 had been pretty rough, and particularly devastating to me was attending my kid's musical at his school wearing earplugs and coming out with some of the worst ringing in my head I have ever experienced. I ended up not going into both my kid's dance recitals at the end of May, aside from their own performances, to avoid that type of extreme discomfort and managed to avoid it. Nevertheless, I've already seen an ENT and know the answers there (structurally, my eardrums look OK aside from scar tissue from prior ear infections). I went to get a physical exam yesterday (same thing). One thing that did help me in 2017 after my mother's death was going on Zoloft, and from that point on, I honestly have no memory of being affected or bothered by tinnitus whatsoever until recently. I also started a CPA firm in 2021 that has been highly successful and growing, and the thought of tinnitus affecting my ability to participate in the activities that have helped it grow, like speaking at conferences and networking, is particularly frightening.
Anyway, I am not looking for specific advice and do not want anybody to provide any "negative" thoughts here because I am really coming here for support, to feel less alone with this, and to keep positive thoughts so that, hopefully, things will fade away and become less bothersome over the next several months. I've habituated before, so I know I can do it again. Just writing this out and knowing some people have suffered and come out the other side is comforting (not to mention, the Susan Shore device does look very promising from a medical perspective). I'm taking some comfort in the little gains week to week right now. A few weeks ago, being around my kids playing with iPad devices and having loud fun felt really hard, but this past week was the first time in a while it felt like outside sounds could "mask" it. So, whatever my particular biological makeup might be, I am hoping I can find the same journey I eventually landed on the first time.
Thanks for listening, and hello to some old friends here like @Markku. It's nice to see all the work you and @Hazel are doing. Take good care, folks.
I'm back because, unfortunately, I had a relapse of my tinnitus last month. I originally got tinnitus in October 2014, triggered by an ear infection and likely exacerbated by noise, having been a musician for several years, particularly during those years of drumming (bad idea). The positive side was that the severity had decreased in about a year, and within 5-10 years, it gradually disappeared to where I never noticed it. Back in 2015-2016, I was even a moderator here, which was a bright light in what was not a particularly good chapter in my life.
Unfortunately, I went to a concert in May, didn't wear ear protection (something I had grown accustomed to), and noticed ringing. By the time I got earplugs back in, it was too late. The month of May 2024 had been pretty rough, and particularly devastating to me was attending my kid's musical at his school wearing earplugs and coming out with some of the worst ringing in my head I have ever experienced. I ended up not going into both my kid's dance recitals at the end of May, aside from their own performances, to avoid that type of extreme discomfort and managed to avoid it. Nevertheless, I've already seen an ENT and know the answers there (structurally, my eardrums look OK aside from scar tissue from prior ear infections). I went to get a physical exam yesterday (same thing). One thing that did help me in 2017 after my mother's death was going on Zoloft, and from that point on, I honestly have no memory of being affected or bothered by tinnitus whatsoever until recently. I also started a CPA firm in 2021 that has been highly successful and growing, and the thought of tinnitus affecting my ability to participate in the activities that have helped it grow, like speaking at conferences and networking, is particularly frightening.
Anyway, I am not looking for specific advice and do not want anybody to provide any "negative" thoughts here because I am really coming here for support, to feel less alone with this, and to keep positive thoughts so that, hopefully, things will fade away and become less bothersome over the next several months. I've habituated before, so I know I can do it again. Just writing this out and knowing some people have suffered and come out the other side is comforting (not to mention, the Susan Shore device does look very promising from a medical perspective). I'm taking some comfort in the little gains week to week right now. A few weeks ago, being around my kids playing with iPad devices and having loud fun felt really hard, but this past week was the first time in a while it felt like outside sounds could "mask" it. So, whatever my particular biological makeup might be, I am hoping I can find the same journey I eventually landed on the first time.
Thanks for listening, and hello to some old friends here like @Markku. It's nice to see all the work you and @Hazel are doing. Take good care, folks.