@Dr. Nagler
thank you so much for taking the time to answer me. It is appreciated.
I went to the city yesterday - to see a private ent guy.
Got it paid for by the govt so that was gopd,
Anyhow he said 3 things
1. I had a hearing test and he said normal hearing.
2.. That he things that i have jaw misalignment due to missing teeth in top set
3. That it is all stress induced
Dont know why he thinks stress cos he dosesnt know me at all
Anyhow dont think that you know the situation i am living in.
I am living with a man who is a bit of a monster
Not everyday but lots and lots
He drinks too much and acts like a child.
He doesnt work
He had a work accident and cut his thumb off which is how we stayed in france
Then he had a stroke last november
So now we are holed up in this house that i didnt want to move to
I told him different house , same you so it wont change or be better
But he wanted to move and yet again i believed him that all would be ok
I am stuck with him cos i have nowhere to go
no family and have lost touch with any friends.
My brother died young back in 09
My other brother stole all my money and is now in Quebed. I havent seen him for 23 years
I have a cousin in England
I told her about my probs back in 2012 and she is a family lawyer and a mediator between couples wanting to divorce
Anyhow i told her the things that he does to me like violent, drunk, threatening, smashing things etc..and then nice again and then does it again.
He also insults me all the time using my jewish background as an insult calling e a xxxxxxx jew and what are the jews doing in europe and hitler was right etc etc... I am sure you can imagine how painful such comments are to me
Anyhow moved house and the T started suddenly
Yesterday after the docs he was drunk and he started on me in the car when we were eating a sandwich
I had to jump out o f the car and passers by saw what was happening and called the police
Eventually police came. I did not know that they had called police until they turned up.
2 very nice policeman actually.
They asked me if I was tired cos they said i look exhausted
Anyhow they wanted to arrest him and lock him up
I just dont want any more trouble so i persuaded them that all is ok
They saw that he is drunk and that his behaviour is not good. So they insisted that he moves out fm the drivers seat and that i drive
So ok i did that
But he kept screaming in my ears from the back seat and kicking me in my back thru the back of the front seat that i was sitting in
I told him that i cant drive like that but when he starts it is like dealing with an insane nutcase
He insisted on getting more beer and i cant stop him cos to try to stop him will only cause more problems for m
So he screamed all the way back
and then carried on in the house
Today i wake up and i think that the T has gone from my right ear to my left ear. I never had it in my left ear before
I am so terrified and so alone
I dont know what to do
Do i kill him or myself cos i cannot go on like this
It has been too much for too long
So it is not just a case of finding someone to help out.
I need help desperately
Before I knew this person I was really together altho lonely with no family
That is why i ended up with him - cos i thought that i would not be alone and i would have his family
But his family dont want to know him
And i am stuck with him and i think that it suits the family if i have the problem cos then they dont have the problem
I just have suffered so much with him and now this T
How do i help myself? It is a ocnstant nightmare that i cannot wake up from or get out from
any ideas
thanks