Hey guys,
I'm a musician and I got my T from failing to protect my ears on stage. I was warned all those years ago to always wear both in-ear monitors but I guess I forgot this advice and wore just one monitor in my right ear as my left ear took a bashing from nearby cymbals. My T sounds like a whistling kettle around 8300 kHz in my left ear (about 5 out of 10 loudness) and like a standard concert tinnitus in my right ear around 6500 kHz (about a 2).
I've had to cancel all my shows, which were my main source of income, forget a major project I was producing and move back in with my parents. Obviously, the first line I open with on a date.
Along with the T I have a case of H where some high pitched frequencies are so intense they cause me to leave the room. These noises include dishes clanking, doors shutting, dogs barking and even the sound of some women' s voices.
Overall I'm doing ok. The real battle with T is purely mental and I know I won't see improvement until I learn to stop blaming myself and being so regretful about all the events that led to my hearing loss.
I have a few questions that I would love answered by anyone who has been in similar circumstances.
1) Will my hyperacusis go away? I've seen people on the board that say it could go away within 3 months. What are the chances of that?
2) What are the important steps to take in the acute phase of tinnitus? I had one production session that seemed to make my T worse, I'm still mad at myself for doing that. Should I stay away from any noises over 60 dB? What else should I be focusing on in my first year of T?
I've heard good things about LLLT, does anyone wanna sell their "Lucky Laser"?
3) What retraining therapy worked for you? Is there any way to Do-It-Yourself TRT, CBT, or Heidelberg Model of Music Therapy? I have found that rain sounds are masking and soothing, I really enjoy being out in nature as the sounds of the wind and water are great on my ears and brain. A professional retraining therapy is kind of expensive, but I'd be willing to try one on a recommendation.
I find this sound to be pleasing in a way. I know it's based on research, will this help me? http://generalfuzz.net/acrn/
4) Are hearing aids helpful in reducing T? The healthcare system around audiology seems so pricey. Have you seen the iHear HD hearing devices? I feel like the right kind of hearing aid would help steer my brain out of the T. Anyone had luck with this?
5) Are there any promising clinical trials in the US I should check out? The AM-101 trials have closed for US residents for now and University of Arkansas is doing an rTMS trial, but I'm not sure I want my brain pounded with theta waves or whatever...
I've been reading this board since I've had T and I'd like to say thanks for all information, honesty and inspiration. Without you guys I would feel alone out here, because if there is one thing T does to you it's separate you from everyone else in a very private and persistent manner. I have gotten to the point where I realize that habituation is my best option and that can't happen until I stop dwelling on this so much.
Thanks for all your input,
-BC-
I'm a musician and I got my T from failing to protect my ears on stage. I was warned all those years ago to always wear both in-ear monitors but I guess I forgot this advice and wore just one monitor in my right ear as my left ear took a bashing from nearby cymbals. My T sounds like a whistling kettle around 8300 kHz in my left ear (about 5 out of 10 loudness) and like a standard concert tinnitus in my right ear around 6500 kHz (about a 2).
I've had to cancel all my shows, which were my main source of income, forget a major project I was producing and move back in with my parents. Obviously, the first line I open with on a date.
Along with the T I have a case of H where some high pitched frequencies are so intense they cause me to leave the room. These noises include dishes clanking, doors shutting, dogs barking and even the sound of some women' s voices.
Overall I'm doing ok. The real battle with T is purely mental and I know I won't see improvement until I learn to stop blaming myself and being so regretful about all the events that led to my hearing loss.
I have a few questions that I would love answered by anyone who has been in similar circumstances.
1) Will my hyperacusis go away? I've seen people on the board that say it could go away within 3 months. What are the chances of that?
2) What are the important steps to take in the acute phase of tinnitus? I had one production session that seemed to make my T worse, I'm still mad at myself for doing that. Should I stay away from any noises over 60 dB? What else should I be focusing on in my first year of T?
I've heard good things about LLLT, does anyone wanna sell their "Lucky Laser"?
3) What retraining therapy worked for you? Is there any way to Do-It-Yourself TRT, CBT, or Heidelberg Model of Music Therapy? I have found that rain sounds are masking and soothing, I really enjoy being out in nature as the sounds of the wind and water are great on my ears and brain. A professional retraining therapy is kind of expensive, but I'd be willing to try one on a recommendation.
I find this sound to be pleasing in a way. I know it's based on research, will this help me? http://generalfuzz.net/acrn/
4) Are hearing aids helpful in reducing T? The healthcare system around audiology seems so pricey. Have you seen the iHear HD hearing devices? I feel like the right kind of hearing aid would help steer my brain out of the T. Anyone had luck with this?
5) Are there any promising clinical trials in the US I should check out? The AM-101 trials have closed for US residents for now and University of Arkansas is doing an rTMS trial, but I'm not sure I want my brain pounded with theta waves or whatever...
I've been reading this board since I've had T and I'd like to say thanks for all information, honesty and inspiration. Without you guys I would feel alone out here, because if there is one thing T does to you it's separate you from everyone else in a very private and persistent manner. I have gotten to the point where I realize that habituation is my best option and that can't happen until I stop dwelling on this so much.
Thanks for all your input,
-BC-