My 2-Year Journey: From Living Hell to a Happy and Full Life

Zug

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When Tinnitus hit me, it felt like torture. I heard a loud, shrieking high pitched sound that followed me everywhere. Making it worse, I had hyperacusis, so if I stayed indoors, tinnitus would drive me crazy, and if I went outside, normal sounds hit me like a brick.

To make the noise stop, I tried Homeopathy, Acupuncture, and other "alternative cures". But after 3 months, the tinnitus hadn't change and I was feeling worse. I still had trouble sleeping, kept falling behind at work. I was miserable. My girlfriend even left me. I didn't believe I could ever feel better, much less have my old life back.

Then I remembered my ENT's had said "you'll learn to live with it", and they recommended CBT. I was skeptical that an approach claiming to help me accept tinnitus could work, but out of desperation, I gave it a try and found @Dr. Hubbard . One of the first things @Dr. Hubbard told me stuck. He said, "If your tinnitus doesn't go away, you can still be ok, because your brain can learn to habituate, and you will no longer notice your tinnitus." I remember asking him if "habituation" wasn't just a cute word to calm people down!

Well, seeing is believing, because you really don't believe it until it happens to you. I was so relieved when I began to see small changes, moments when the sounds seemed to go away. As soon as I said "Hey, I'm not hearing my tinnitus!" it would come slamming back. But these moments gave me something to hang on to. They gave me hope that CBT was working just as Dr Hubbard said it would. Gradually, the periods of time when I didn't notice tinnitus became longer and felt more natural. It's not that the tinnitus isn't there. I still notice it sometimes, especially when I'm tired, sick or stressed. But now I see it for what it is: A condition that I can live with. My brain found better things to do than obsess about the sounds. A couple of weeks ago I was sitting in my living room reading, when my wife asked, "what the hell is that neighbor doing?" Not really noticing, I said "Oh, is that noise outside? I thought it was in my head!"

One change is that I take better care of my hearing. I carry earplugs now, and use them at loud venues. But it's a small price for getting my life back. In time, my brain has gotten better at tuning tinnitus out, and focusing on the more important stuff. It's two years later, and I've traveled, reengaged at work, even started a new relationship and got married. Life is good again! I still have Tinnitus, but I have moved on with my life.

When I was more active here, there were a lot of talk of people searching for cures, magic bullets, some new thing or old wisdom... If you're truly suffering, I highly recommend that you find a knowledgeable professional with real experience on the subject.

CBT worked for me and I highly recommend it.

Best,
Zug
 
@Zug - Thank you for sharing your story; it was uplifting and encouraging. I hope that every sufferer in this forum reads your post and comes to the realization that what can not be cured must be accepted and habituation is the way!

This is an illustration to all those who speak incessantly of suicide..... that if they ever take that route, they can be guaranteed it will negate all possibility for happiness in the future such as Zug has realized.

I am happy for you, congratulations on your marriage and here's wishing you much health and happiness !

Best wishes,
Barbara
 
Awesome man, feel happy for you.. in fact i got into reading it so much i forgot about my T, until i realised and i heard it.. but like you I'm happy about that.. In time i wont even think and forget it's there completely :) thanks for sharing that! I got my T about 2 weeks ago, I'm surprised I'm more ok with it already
 
You sound a lot like me. Once you get to the point where you realize T is no longer the focus of your life, it's a wonderful feeling. You realize that life does go on, you CAN cope, you CAN lead a happy and productive life, and your T doesn't need to be on your mind 24x7. It can happen without you realizing it happened which was the case for me.

Stories like yours give hope to people everywhere, and for people like me who have also used CBT to adjust to a life with T we can raise our hands and give you a virtual high five and say, "Woohoo!"

Thanks for sharing your experiences!
 

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