So, it's getting worse and I still don't know what it is going on with me.
I went to the GP today, and he wasn't interested in my tinnitus. He just referred me to a mental health team. On Sunday night, I went to A&E having suicidal thoughts. I was/am in absolute meltdown. But that doctor said I needed referring to an audiologist for a hearing test and then perhaps to an ENT specialist.
My hope was that, they could identify some hearing loss and I could at least get a hearing aid that might just help with this noise. Somehow.
In the last couple of days I swear it has gotten worse. I think it has gotten worse after messing around with masks on YouTube and trying to find the frequency with frequency generators.
It's such a high frequency, it sounds like a hiss. I can almost feel it. It seems to shift in my head, does this resonate with anyone? It sounds like electricity, like hissing.
Watching TV makes it louder. And then the TV isn't loud enough to mask it. So now I can't just relax with the TV. I can now clearly hear it at work, too. Whereas last week, I couldn't. Nothing seems to mask it, because it is so high pitched and it's definitely loud. I would give it a solid 7/10 now.
I'm just so lost. I don't know which way to turn. I can't function. The thought of this forever is terrifying.
How have you people coped so long? Does the anxiety ever fade? Can I refer myself to an audiologist, or do I need my GP to do it?
Would an hearing aid help me? To be honest, that was the only bit of hope that I had. I have no issue with wearing hearing aids, I don't care about my appearance. But the GP wouldn't even refer me...
Sorry for posting again. I know I am looking for reassurance, and for an answer that I won't find, really. I'm only 10 days in though, and I think that if I feel like ending my life already, how can I ever come to terms with it?
I went to the GP today, and he wasn't interested in my tinnitus. He just referred me to a mental health team. On Sunday night, I went to A&E having suicidal thoughts. I was/am in absolute meltdown. But that doctor said I needed referring to an audiologist for a hearing test and then perhaps to an ENT specialist.
My hope was that, they could identify some hearing loss and I could at least get a hearing aid that might just help with this noise. Somehow.
In the last couple of days I swear it has gotten worse. I think it has gotten worse after messing around with masks on YouTube and trying to find the frequency with frequency generators.
It's such a high frequency, it sounds like a hiss. I can almost feel it. It seems to shift in my head, does this resonate with anyone? It sounds like electricity, like hissing.
Watching TV makes it louder. And then the TV isn't loud enough to mask it. So now I can't just relax with the TV. I can now clearly hear it at work, too. Whereas last week, I couldn't. Nothing seems to mask it, because it is so high pitched and it's definitely loud. I would give it a solid 7/10 now.
I'm just so lost. I don't know which way to turn. I can't function. The thought of this forever is terrifying.
How have you people coped so long? Does the anxiety ever fade? Can I refer myself to an audiologist, or do I need my GP to do it?
Would an hearing aid help me? To be honest, that was the only bit of hope that I had. I have no issue with wearing hearing aids, I don't care about my appearance. But the GP wouldn't even refer me...
Sorry for posting again. I know I am looking for reassurance, and for an answer that I won't find, really. I'm only 10 days in though, and I think that if I feel like ending my life already, how can I ever come to terms with it?