- Apr 9, 2019
- 12
- Tinnitus Since
- Jan 2019
- Cause of Tinnitus
- Unsure - Mid Range Hearing Loss / Stress / Bruxism
I woke up one morning in mid-January with a loud high-pitched ringing and feeling of fullness in my left ear. My immediate reaction was "oh no, another ear infection" because I'd had a very nasty one about 18 months prior. I quickly booked an appointment with my GP but when I saw him, he said that there was nothing in my ear and no sign of infection… I had tinnitus.
I knew enough about tinnitus to immediately start worrying and as I began to spiral with anxiety it got worse. The tinnitus started to change which ear it was in, some days left, some days right and some days both. It would also change its tone and volume, from ringing, to buzzing and from quiet enough to drown out with my cars engine to loud enough to be silenced by nothing. I felt helpless and immensely sad, like my life was over, that I would never be happy again with the constant noise in my head.
My doctor had referred me to an ENT and audiology, and they discovered I had a mild mid-range hearing loss. This was given as the reason for my tinnitus, which to this day I'm suspicious of. They claimed it's likely I've had the hearing loss since birth, so how could it suddenly give me tinnitus? Anyway, I also had an MRI to rule out a tumour which came back all clear. It made me feel slightly better but not massively, I was still crippled with anxiety and despair that I could be stuck like this forever.
I went on like this for about 3 months before a chance conversation with one of my girlfriend's friends who had tinnitus for about 6 months before it eventually went away. This gave me enough hope to change my outlook – it's actually when I first posted on here. I decided that I would try to reduce my anxiety in an effort to either habituate or get rid of my tinnitus. My plan of action was this:
1. Go to a support group meeting to meet likeminded people who could pass their experience on to me.
2. Start meditating (This was really tough with the noise in my head to begin with, but with perseverance I could begin to relax. Having baths helped me to relax too)
3. Get out more and do things I enjoy. I started going on more walks, going to the gym, playing golf a lot and took up bouldering.
4. When I was out, I was trying to focus on other sounds and forget the tinnitus as best I could. Also, to stop focusing on the sound itself and instead focus on my emotional state.
5. Only masking it when it drove me to a very anxious state / was making it hard to concentrate on something.
Fast forward to today and my tinnitus is much better. It took about another 3 months from my decision to make a "plan of action" for it to improve but it has drastically reduced in volume and sometimes, only briefly, is not there at all. It still switches from ear to ear but is now mostly so quiet that I can only hear it in quiet rooms – like when I'm in bed about to sleep but even then I don't need to mask it.
I have no idea if my change in outlook and "plan of action" had any effect whatsoever, I'm just saying that's what I did. Being active and trying to find things to make my life busy certainly helped with anxiety, if not the tinnitus itself. Maybe I just got better with time, but you know what that's good enough. Maybe that will help some people who are new to tinnitus – just knowing that there are people who get drastically better.
It's taken over 8 months from onset to this point where I feel "safe" to write my success story. I still hope that I can get even better with time but honestly, I'm happy as I am now. I still get a little worried it might come back as bad as it was at the beginning but if it does, I'm sure I'll be able to cope much better than I did before.
There was no indication that noise trauma caused my tinnitus, but I take precautions now, so fingers crossed I'm preventing it coming back as bad as it was/ getting worse. I never listen to music at volumes that could be damaging (not that I did before, but I listen to music even quieter now). I also have noise reducing earplugs for concerts.
I hope this story helps some people, particularly those new to tinnitus. People can get better, either with it completely disappearing (like my girlfriend's friend) or by it significantly reducing in intensity like mine. It just takes time.
I knew enough about tinnitus to immediately start worrying and as I began to spiral with anxiety it got worse. The tinnitus started to change which ear it was in, some days left, some days right and some days both. It would also change its tone and volume, from ringing, to buzzing and from quiet enough to drown out with my cars engine to loud enough to be silenced by nothing. I felt helpless and immensely sad, like my life was over, that I would never be happy again with the constant noise in my head.
My doctor had referred me to an ENT and audiology, and they discovered I had a mild mid-range hearing loss. This was given as the reason for my tinnitus, which to this day I'm suspicious of. They claimed it's likely I've had the hearing loss since birth, so how could it suddenly give me tinnitus? Anyway, I also had an MRI to rule out a tumour which came back all clear. It made me feel slightly better but not massively, I was still crippled with anxiety and despair that I could be stuck like this forever.
I went on like this for about 3 months before a chance conversation with one of my girlfriend's friends who had tinnitus for about 6 months before it eventually went away. This gave me enough hope to change my outlook – it's actually when I first posted on here. I decided that I would try to reduce my anxiety in an effort to either habituate or get rid of my tinnitus. My plan of action was this:
1. Go to a support group meeting to meet likeminded people who could pass their experience on to me.
2. Start meditating (This was really tough with the noise in my head to begin with, but with perseverance I could begin to relax. Having baths helped me to relax too)
3. Get out more and do things I enjoy. I started going on more walks, going to the gym, playing golf a lot and took up bouldering.
4. When I was out, I was trying to focus on other sounds and forget the tinnitus as best I could. Also, to stop focusing on the sound itself and instead focus on my emotional state.
5. Only masking it when it drove me to a very anxious state / was making it hard to concentrate on something.
Fast forward to today and my tinnitus is much better. It took about another 3 months from my decision to make a "plan of action" for it to improve but it has drastically reduced in volume and sometimes, only briefly, is not there at all. It still switches from ear to ear but is now mostly so quiet that I can only hear it in quiet rooms – like when I'm in bed about to sleep but even then I don't need to mask it.
I have no idea if my change in outlook and "plan of action" had any effect whatsoever, I'm just saying that's what I did. Being active and trying to find things to make my life busy certainly helped with anxiety, if not the tinnitus itself. Maybe I just got better with time, but you know what that's good enough. Maybe that will help some people who are new to tinnitus – just knowing that there are people who get drastically better.
It's taken over 8 months from onset to this point where I feel "safe" to write my success story. I still hope that I can get even better with time but honestly, I'm happy as I am now. I still get a little worried it might come back as bad as it was at the beginning but if it does, I'm sure I'll be able to cope much better than I did before.
There was no indication that noise trauma caused my tinnitus, but I take precautions now, so fingers crossed I'm preventing it coming back as bad as it was/ getting worse. I never listen to music at volumes that could be damaging (not that I did before, but I listen to music even quieter now). I also have noise reducing earplugs for concerts.
I hope this story helps some people, particularly those new to tinnitus. People can get better, either with it completely disappearing (like my girlfriend's friend) or by it significantly reducing in intensity like mine. It just takes time.