@Kaelon , I couldn't thank you more for the time you spent to answer me. I've been searching info for a month but it's still not enough, and what is worse, I'm right before my exam session at the university so there 's a lot of work to be done and I'm obviously not doing even a half of it because of my T..I'm fighting though, telling myself that if T is gone in a few months I will reproach myself for not having succeeded.. even though my parents say that if I cannot bear it, I don't have to..well..it's something nobody here expected to come and that suddenly turned the world upside down.
You see, not even for a moment was I afraid that it's a symptom of a serious disease. It's enough to read any article on the internet to know that it's very scarce. Worrying about brain tumors or that something serious is going on is not my case. My GP gave me a prescription for MRI ''to calm me down'' but he said it's completely useless. I'm going to do it only because my parents and my boyfriend ask me to..I'm mostly worried about it ruining my life, my relationship, my future cause mentally I can't stand not having silence and not being able to sleep ..well, enough of depressive thoughts, I've been really down. The only thing that could save me is seeing this problem resolving.
So you say 3 weeks of Benzo couldn't have any influence? It's true that I took as little as possible but last week, when I didn't take it for the night , I managed to fall asleep at 9 pm , woke up at1 and the T was really barely noticeable . I was even wondering if I still had it. I fell asleep again. In the morning it was still there, but very calm. I was hopeful. Then it tuned up for one day a few days later and went down for a few last days cause I stayed at home ( I noticed that when I don't go into the subway and limit the noises, the T is much milder) , so I stuck to the idea that I have it sound-sensitive. The car and shopping didn't seem to tune it up though.
Only from last night it's louder again and this even though I had taken benzo for the night after a break. :/ So in my case it seems not to calm it down..whether it is a coincidence or not , I definitely don't want to continue on benzo, but there 's no way I can see any doctor before in two weeks time in this town .. and T is not sth they accept at ER : ( I hope the last tuning up is also due to very scarce sleep during last 3 nights...
I have booked a visit for the intratympanic steroid injections though, in a month..
When it comes to earplugs, you know..my ENT said it can happen that they trigger T, he didn't exclude it as an option. My ears were completely stuck with them for ten hours 4 nights in a row. I 've come across testimonies of people who developed T beause of earplugs or at least hyperacusis.. I guess earplugs are not made to sleep with every night, the whole night..as long as my ears tolerated being stuck with foam plugs, they reacted terribly to the wax. I created my theory..that because of them my brain realised that I had some hearing loss, suddenly NOTICED it as there was no sound coming through. but as you say, I will probably never know..
I just cannot bare the fact that hearing loss necesarily means T, cause I know many people with hearing loss bigger than mine and they have no T. There must be sth more to it. A few factors maybe..like the fact that I suffered from insomnia far before T..now it's just even WORSE, but nothing new. I've been walking dead tired for months beacause of my school and neighbours waking me up too early ( that's why I plugged my ears with wax . )
Still, all that gives me hope is the belief that T can resolve itself NO MATTER the underlying cause.
I even wrote it with huge letters in my notebook and repeat it to myslef like a mantra.
Have a very good day in the US, here in France I'm going to hit another night, successfully this time I hope..