Hi Friends,
I have been pretty active on this forum for the past year. I have had debilitating tinnitus for about a year. I got it a week before my 21st birthday, and my 22nd birthday is just around the corner. I am going through a bad spike in my left ear due to an unfortunate phone incident that happened a few days ago.
I try to be so careful and I still get unavoidable setbacks. My main tinnitus tone in my right ear is at an all-time high. Less than a month ago, I would have a good day every now and then. Now my good days have disappeared. I don't know why. The phone incident was isolated to my left ear, and my right ear had been at an all-time high before that had occurred. I cannot pinpoint a reason as to why my tinnitus had suddenly reverted to a state it was in when this all started for me a year ago.
I also suffer from horrible noise distortions. Fans, air purifiers, showers, running water, etc, are all distorted to me. They do not provide me with any relief.
I feel as though I am at my wits' end. I have been fighting this thing tooth and nail for the past year. I emptied my savings on Lenire and it didn't work for me. I really want to apply for graduate school but tinnitus has debilitated me to an extent where I am unable to.
The only reprieve I have is when I get extreme migraines at the end of the month when I go off my birth control. I have dealt with these migraines long before tinnitus, but I was always too lazy to switch birth controls. Now, I look forward to these extreme migraines because for some reason they calm down my tinnitus. I do not take any sort of painkillers when these migraines occur. Although my head feels like it's going to shatter from pain, my tinnitus is lower and I can't help but wish these migraines would last because I can handle the pain so much better.
My family does not understand why I have not gotten used to tinnitus yet. I try to explain how debilitating it is combined with the noise distortions I experience, but they do not understand.
I am trying to hang on for a cure but it gets harder by the minute.
Thanks for listening.