Hey everyone, I'm Capybara and a little over two weeks ago, on June 28th, I developed reactive tinnitus, most likely due to constant headphone usage and volume being too high. Whenever I turn on a fan or shower, there's another high sound that comes along with it, and especially things like refrigerators, vacuums and even my own PC are a little more annoying than they used to be. It's taken a few days to get more used to this new normal and I've been working on keeping my stress and anxiety low.
Of course the first few days were absolutely hellish. It's the typical swan song that I'm sure everyone on this board can relate to in most ways. Asking yourself 'how will I live with this for the rest of my life, how could I let this happen, I should have been more careful, I want to die' and all that fun stuff + scouring this forum and the reddit for anything that sounded similar and hoping people got better from it also added to the stress and anxiety.
Since then, I've gotten a bit more used to it and trying to stay relaxed. Sleep was completely awful at first and it's still not great but it's getting to the point that I can at the least sleep 4-5 hours. I've started drinking chamomile tea to help with it, but I don't know if I should use Melatonin or anything else. I stopped using my headset that very same day it happened (yes I know, Michael, I know) and invested in a pair of speakers a few days later. At the very least when I'm gaming and completely focused I can tune everything out so that's something. I've yet to see an ENT since my doctor's on vacation and here in the Netherlands you always need a doctor's referral, gotta love that wonderful system but I'll go as soon as I'm able.
And lastly, I feel for everyone else that's struggling with this. Whether it's mild or severe, it's a scary time and adjustment phase for all of us, and if I can be of help to anyone else I'll do my best to support them. The one thing I like most about this community is that they stick together because no one else can understand this invisible affliction. I'm hoping since I'm in a very early stage it'll improve and not worsen but to be honest I'm scared of giving myself false hope just in case it's chronic so for the time being I'll just live it day by day and give myself time to recover.
Of course the first few days were absolutely hellish. It's the typical swan song that I'm sure everyone on this board can relate to in most ways. Asking yourself 'how will I live with this for the rest of my life, how could I let this happen, I should have been more careful, I want to die' and all that fun stuff + scouring this forum and the reddit for anything that sounded similar and hoping people got better from it also added to the stress and anxiety.
Since then, I've gotten a bit more used to it and trying to stay relaxed. Sleep was completely awful at first and it's still not great but it's getting to the point that I can at the least sleep 4-5 hours. I've started drinking chamomile tea to help with it, but I don't know if I should use Melatonin or anything else. I stopped using my headset that very same day it happened (yes I know, Michael, I know) and invested in a pair of speakers a few days later. At the very least when I'm gaming and completely focused I can tune everything out so that's something. I've yet to see an ENT since my doctor's on vacation and here in the Netherlands you always need a doctor's referral, gotta love that wonderful system but I'll go as soon as I'm able.
And lastly, I feel for everyone else that's struggling with this. Whether it's mild or severe, it's a scary time and adjustment phase for all of us, and if I can be of help to anyone else I'll do my best to support them. The one thing I like most about this community is that they stick together because no one else can understand this invisible affliction. I'm hoping since I'm in a very early stage it'll improve and not worsen but to be honest I'm scared of giving myself false hope just in case it's chronic so for the time being I'll just live it day by day and give myself time to recover.