Hi everyone,
I'm Emily, 29 years old. Six days ago, I developed a persistent high-pitched ringing in both of my ears, accompanied by a sense of fullness. The evening before I noticed the tinnitus, I had (regrettably) been listening to music at maximum volume through earbuds for about 15 minutes while on a walk. At one point, my ears suddenly experienced a sharp pain, so I turned the volume down to around 65 decibels and continued my walk with the music still playing. Although the pain worried me, I assumed that turning the volume down quickly would prevent any serious issues. I now realize how wrong I was.
Afterward, my ears felt slightly sore, but nothing else seemed off. The following day, I came across a YouTube video about headphone safety. At the end of the video, there was a hearing test, which instructed me to use headphones at 50% volume. The test assessed which frequencies I could hear, and it went up to 19,000 Hz. I could hear up to 15,000 Hz. Ironically, this test made me decide to be more cautious with my hearing in the future. Less than an hour later, I became aware of a loud, piercing, high-frequency ringing in my ears.
I'm devastated. My mental health has been fragile since childhood, and I was just starting to make progress toward a life I actually wanted to live.
Over the past few days, I've had multiple panic attacks and cried more than I have in years. In the past, I've contemplated suicide, but I always stopped myself, knowing I couldn't hurt the people who love me. But now, everything feels different. I've started writing letters to my family to express how much I love and appreciate them. While I'm not making any rash decisions, I want to leave something for them just in case. I don't think I can cope with this for a long period of time. The uncertainty of whether this is permanent is unbearable.
I went to my GP three days after the onset. She mentioned that one of my ears looked slightly red but said there was no other sign of anything wrong. She referred me to an ENT specialist, but the earliest available appointment is a month away. I voiced my concern about the long wait, especially after reading that early intervention might be time-sensitive. My GP suggested I could go to the Emergency Department if I was very worried. I did, and after hours of waiting, I was told the same thing. Now, I've booked a private ENT appointment in three days, hoping to get a prescription for Prednisone in a timely manner.
I'm sorry if this post seems like a rambling mess. In a month, I'm supposed to move to a new city with my best friend, and I was really looking forward to it. Now, I feel hopeless, like all I'll bring with me is negativity. I'm terrified. Right now, I feel like I'd rather lose a limb than endure this torment. In the past, the thought of hurting my loved ones kept me from considering a permanent solution, but I'm not sure if that's enough anymore.
I guess I'm looking for support from people who understand what this feels like, and advice on whether or not Prednisone is something I should insist on when I see my ENT in a few days.
Thank you for taking the time to read this, and I'm sorry for the lack of hope in my message. I know many of you live with this condition and find ways to cope. I just don't know if I can do the same.
I'm Emily, 29 years old. Six days ago, I developed a persistent high-pitched ringing in both of my ears, accompanied by a sense of fullness. The evening before I noticed the tinnitus, I had (regrettably) been listening to music at maximum volume through earbuds for about 15 minutes while on a walk. At one point, my ears suddenly experienced a sharp pain, so I turned the volume down to around 65 decibels and continued my walk with the music still playing. Although the pain worried me, I assumed that turning the volume down quickly would prevent any serious issues. I now realize how wrong I was.
Afterward, my ears felt slightly sore, but nothing else seemed off. The following day, I came across a YouTube video about headphone safety. At the end of the video, there was a hearing test, which instructed me to use headphones at 50% volume. The test assessed which frequencies I could hear, and it went up to 19,000 Hz. I could hear up to 15,000 Hz. Ironically, this test made me decide to be more cautious with my hearing in the future. Less than an hour later, I became aware of a loud, piercing, high-frequency ringing in my ears.
I'm devastated. My mental health has been fragile since childhood, and I was just starting to make progress toward a life I actually wanted to live.
Over the past few days, I've had multiple panic attacks and cried more than I have in years. In the past, I've contemplated suicide, but I always stopped myself, knowing I couldn't hurt the people who love me. But now, everything feels different. I've started writing letters to my family to express how much I love and appreciate them. While I'm not making any rash decisions, I want to leave something for them just in case. I don't think I can cope with this for a long period of time. The uncertainty of whether this is permanent is unbearable.
I went to my GP three days after the onset. She mentioned that one of my ears looked slightly red but said there was no other sign of anything wrong. She referred me to an ENT specialist, but the earliest available appointment is a month away. I voiced my concern about the long wait, especially after reading that early intervention might be time-sensitive. My GP suggested I could go to the Emergency Department if I was very worried. I did, and after hours of waiting, I was told the same thing. Now, I've booked a private ENT appointment in three days, hoping to get a prescription for Prednisone in a timely manner.
I'm sorry if this post seems like a rambling mess. In a month, I'm supposed to move to a new city with my best friend, and I was really looking forward to it. Now, I feel hopeless, like all I'll bring with me is negativity. I'm terrified. Right now, I feel like I'd rather lose a limb than endure this torment. In the past, the thought of hurting my loved ones kept me from considering a permanent solution, but I'm not sure if that's enough anymore.
I guess I'm looking for support from people who understand what this feels like, and advice on whether or not Prednisone is something I should insist on when I see my ENT in a few days.
Thank you for taking the time to read this, and I'm sorry for the lack of hope in my message. I know many of you live with this condition and find ways to cope. I just don't know if I can do the same.