Damn your situation sounds rough. Please hold on man.
Considering antidepressants, have you read the thread where one guy reported improvements on Clomipramine?
I'm curious as to what mechanisms caused the symptom improvement. Maybe because of its antagonizing effect on alpha 1, histamine receptors and V.G. calcium channels, strong serotonin reuptake inhibition or maybe because of its calcium signalling modulating properties?
Of course I don't know the reason of you using Remeron but have you ever considered trying Clomipramine?
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