My Tinnitus is load. I wear an mp3 player earphones that rest on the ear and play cricket sounds through them while in the quiet office during the day. I also wear this setup in my house and around the outside of my house. I have had Tinnitus since when the Mortar shell blew 8 ft from my head during the 4th of Jully, 2011. It was a mortar firework and it was at an ex-friends house who i am in the process of suing over it.
This Tinnitus comes with hypercusis. I am a man of 49 at the moment. As of late the sound has been louder and reactive. When overhead ceiling vents at work or my bedroom come on....the noise level goes crazy. So, it is reactive to ventilation sounds, in the office, in the car at home.
In the mornings when i sit down in front of the computer i can hear the tinnitus in the office environment where there are employees talking, ventilation in the ceiling running, copiers going off, etc. . But i am somehow able to exclude it and work on.....although it stops me several times during the hour to remind me it is still there. I put on my mp3 player and then listen to the sound of crickets just enough to where i can just hear the Tinnitus. This continues while i am at my computer working. When i leave my computer i take the mp3 and earphone off as i don't want to look like i am jamming at work. But as of late, by the end of the day the tinnitus spikes and is much loader than the masking sounds of the crickets and i begin to fatigue both mentally and physically.
Today was one of those day. Yesterday was. I sat in my car in traffic listening to NPR and just was in mental pain, anguish, i had tears falling from my eyes as not being able to believe that i had to live like this. That i was so unlucky to have gone to that ex-friends house on that 4th of July and that now i have to suffer until my death.
But i will not give up. Knowing that we are all in this together gives me the power of many. I will, we will, will persevere.
God help them find a cure today.
This Tinnitus comes with hypercusis. I am a man of 49 at the moment. As of late the sound has been louder and reactive. When overhead ceiling vents at work or my bedroom come on....the noise level goes crazy. So, it is reactive to ventilation sounds, in the office, in the car at home.
In the mornings when i sit down in front of the computer i can hear the tinnitus in the office environment where there are employees talking, ventilation in the ceiling running, copiers going off, etc. . But i am somehow able to exclude it and work on.....although it stops me several times during the hour to remind me it is still there. I put on my mp3 player and then listen to the sound of crickets just enough to where i can just hear the Tinnitus. This continues while i am at my computer working. When i leave my computer i take the mp3 and earphone off as i don't want to look like i am jamming at work. But as of late, by the end of the day the tinnitus spikes and is much loader than the masking sounds of the crickets and i begin to fatigue both mentally and physically.
Today was one of those day. Yesterday was. I sat in my car in traffic listening to NPR and just was in mental pain, anguish, i had tears falling from my eyes as not being able to believe that i had to live like this. That i was so unlucky to have gone to that ex-friends house on that 4th of July and that now i have to suffer until my death.
But i will not give up. Knowing that we are all in this together gives me the power of many. I will, we will, will persevere.
God help them find a cure today.
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