- Dec 28, 2022
- 5
- Tinnitus Since
- Not Sure
- Cause of Tinnitus
- Likely long-term noise, extreme anxiety/stress, TMJ
I'm 39F. Long story short, I've had a low-volume, pure tone tinnitus for pretty much my whole life. Always thought silence sounded like that low tone. Never bothered me.
A year (or more?) ago I noticed that I also had a very somatic high-pitched hissing. It hisses when I turn my head certain ways, clench my neck muscles, jut my jaw forward, or lean my head back. It shoots up in volume with that motion. This one is also pulsatile with increased blood flow like exercise or high emotion. It's not in just one ear, it's just a sound generally in my head, or 'both ears'. Thought it was a quirk of mine and never thought to be bothered by it. No stress, no anxiety. Went on with life.
More recently - again, can't tell you exactly how long - I've noticed a very shrill high-pitched buzzing fly type noise in my left ear that is REAL-TIME reactive to sounds that I'm hearing. It'll buzz around literally like a fly in my ear, very high pitched, when I am around noise. It is silent - as in not there AT ALL, in quiet rooms or rooms with low volume noise.
More info: I went to an ENT/Neurotologist who cleared me of anything medical (because I Googled pulsatile tinnitus and scared the crap out of myself). I had a hearing test that showed no clinical hearing loss. 100% on word recognition (plain and in background noise) and my pure tone hearing is the same in both ears and very good save for a 'notch' at 6 kHz in both ears. The notch is still within normal range.
Because my hissing tinnitus (which is only there when I do the movements I noted above) is sooo somatic and easily modulated, he thinks that's why it is sometimes pulsatile, as the sound when it 'pulses' is EXACTLY the same sound it makes when I modulate it with movement. I can make it 'pulse' and sound exactly like the actual pulsatile hissing by jerking my head to the side quickly.
My Cause: absolutely because I have been abusing my ears the last several years. I am extremely sensitive to certain noises and sounds. Both of my kids had 'colic' and both have behavioral issues. There's a lot of loudness and screaming in the house as they try to navigate their big emotions. I love my kids more than life... and I also have a crazy intolerance for the shrill, daily screaming. To protect my own mental health, I started wearing noise-canceling headphones most of the day to take the edge off the sound so I could be more present and helpful with them without losing my own mind. Sometimes I'd have a podcast or video playing to briefly give my mind something else to shift focus so I could stay centered. I also go on 6 mile walks in the evenings and have been wearing AirPods to listen to music during them. I didn't know I was listening too loud, but clearly I was. Off topic: my kids are doing a lot better now and are thriving more and more each day!
So... I can deal with the somatic hissing that seems to not be there at all sometimes, but this little shrill buzzing bee in my left ear is bringing me down. Film and music are huge parts of my life, but now it's difficult to enjoy those things because this shrill little sound reacts when I'm listening (not at high volume) to audio.
I've stopped ALL headphones/AirPods use as of a month ago (when my mental health took a huge dive as I started becoming worried and distressed about the sounds in my head for the first time ever). I also bought a pair of Loop earplugs to protect my ears against loud noises going forward.
But... why is the buzzing bee/real-time reactive sound not there AT ALL when I have the earplugs in? Like... it's just gone. The hissing will still hiss when I do something that modulates it, but I can watch TV (fairly low volume with subtitles on) with the earplugs in and I don't hear it. I also don't hear it in the morning when it's quiet (when I'm brave enough to attempt sleep without crickets/pink noise), but when I get up and go around my house, it's back again, reacting to the sounds around me.
What does this mean? And does anyone else experience this? I won't ask "Does this mean I have a chance of recovering?" because like all of you, I'd love for all of this to just go away, but I'm setting my expectations low. I'd kill to go back to 6 weeks ago when most of this was still present but NONE of it bothered me.
Love and support to you all.
A year (or more?) ago I noticed that I also had a very somatic high-pitched hissing. It hisses when I turn my head certain ways, clench my neck muscles, jut my jaw forward, or lean my head back. It shoots up in volume with that motion. This one is also pulsatile with increased blood flow like exercise or high emotion. It's not in just one ear, it's just a sound generally in my head, or 'both ears'. Thought it was a quirk of mine and never thought to be bothered by it. No stress, no anxiety. Went on with life.
More recently - again, can't tell you exactly how long - I've noticed a very shrill high-pitched buzzing fly type noise in my left ear that is REAL-TIME reactive to sounds that I'm hearing. It'll buzz around literally like a fly in my ear, very high pitched, when I am around noise. It is silent - as in not there AT ALL, in quiet rooms or rooms with low volume noise.
More info: I went to an ENT/Neurotologist who cleared me of anything medical (because I Googled pulsatile tinnitus and scared the crap out of myself). I had a hearing test that showed no clinical hearing loss. 100% on word recognition (plain and in background noise) and my pure tone hearing is the same in both ears and very good save for a 'notch' at 6 kHz in both ears. The notch is still within normal range.
Because my hissing tinnitus (which is only there when I do the movements I noted above) is sooo somatic and easily modulated, he thinks that's why it is sometimes pulsatile, as the sound when it 'pulses' is EXACTLY the same sound it makes when I modulate it with movement. I can make it 'pulse' and sound exactly like the actual pulsatile hissing by jerking my head to the side quickly.
My Cause: absolutely because I have been abusing my ears the last several years. I am extremely sensitive to certain noises and sounds. Both of my kids had 'colic' and both have behavioral issues. There's a lot of loudness and screaming in the house as they try to navigate their big emotions. I love my kids more than life... and I also have a crazy intolerance for the shrill, daily screaming. To protect my own mental health, I started wearing noise-canceling headphones most of the day to take the edge off the sound so I could be more present and helpful with them without losing my own mind. Sometimes I'd have a podcast or video playing to briefly give my mind something else to shift focus so I could stay centered. I also go on 6 mile walks in the evenings and have been wearing AirPods to listen to music during them. I didn't know I was listening too loud, but clearly I was. Off topic: my kids are doing a lot better now and are thriving more and more each day!
So... I can deal with the somatic hissing that seems to not be there at all sometimes, but this little shrill buzzing bee in my left ear is bringing me down. Film and music are huge parts of my life, but now it's difficult to enjoy those things because this shrill little sound reacts when I'm listening (not at high volume) to audio.
I've stopped ALL headphones/AirPods use as of a month ago (when my mental health took a huge dive as I started becoming worried and distressed about the sounds in my head for the first time ever). I also bought a pair of Loop earplugs to protect my ears against loud noises going forward.
But... why is the buzzing bee/real-time reactive sound not there AT ALL when I have the earplugs in? Like... it's just gone. The hissing will still hiss when I do something that modulates it, but I can watch TV (fairly low volume with subtitles on) with the earplugs in and I don't hear it. I also don't hear it in the morning when it's quiet (when I'm brave enough to attempt sleep without crickets/pink noise), but when I get up and go around my house, it's back again, reacting to the sounds around me.
What does this mean? And does anyone else experience this? I won't ask "Does this mean I have a chance of recovering?" because like all of you, I'd love for all of this to just go away, but I'm setting my expectations low. I'd kill to go back to 6 weeks ago when most of this was still present but NONE of it bothered me.
Love and support to you all.