hello Caroline, I am what you call a catastrophic tinnitus case, with tinnitus very loud and sound as a dental drill, 24/7, 365 that can be heard over
any environmental noise, and cannot be masked by medical prosthetic devices. Think of it like sharp chronic pain that is drug resistant.
It started after a fire alarm exposure. What happens is one loses high frequency hearing too suddenly and the brain fails to compensate and begins to make up its own sounds in the area it lost - that is what I learned over the 3 years since I've had this blight.
I just woke up in the morning and it was there. I began losing my sleep, my sanity and with it all my friends, my job, my kids, everything held dear to me and eventually landed in a mental ward-only to find that nobody can help me. I was not crazy like every other patient on the ward, I just had a loud debilitating noise in my head that robbed me of sleep, relaxation, meaningful concentration, and most joy in life.
This existence for me is basically a day to day survival and hope for cure and fighting the urge to pick up a shotgun to my head.
The American Tinnitus Association (ATA) says-
***50 million people in the United States experience tinnitus to some degree.1 Of these, about 16 million have it severe enough tinnitus to seek medical attention and about two million patients are so seriously debilitated that they cannot function on a "normal," day-to-day basis.
Noise is the leading cause of tinnitus and our world has gotten progressively noisier. Noise is in abundance not only in recreational situations like concerts and sporting events, but many face extreme noise on-the-job. Firefighters are one of the many emergency service personnel at risk for developing tinnitus.
http://www.ata.org/for-patients/faqs
Here is one example of a tinnitus suicide published in the media.
http://www.sfgate.com/bayarea/article/SAN-JOSE-Body-found-floating-off-Richmond-IDd-2621350.php
I'd be happy to help in any way I can.