I just don't know what to do anymore and fear I may have screwed things up for myself once again.I had my H under control and after a very hectic October(two funerals one being my fathers)and a handful of noise exposures I was in quite bad pain.I feel like I should have rested my ears more after all I had put them through but I didn't give them enough time to recover as I had so much going on.I was getting out as much as I could to help deal with the passing of my father I also had a trip to London to do and a few Birthdays to go to.I pushed and pushed myself and yes at louder events like the birthdays I'd always wear ear plugs but for everyday noise i.e walking around town etc I wouldn't.Fast forward to now and I'm in excruciating pain,I can barely pull myself out of bed in the morning it's just all too much to bare.The pain is in the back of my head almost like an extreme nettle sting and resegnates down my spine and into my legs and ears.The pain is worsened from the littlest of noise even my own voice at this stage and I just don't know what to do anymore,I tried to have a life again as best I could and now here I am back at square one again,feel like I've done everything wrong and that I'm an idiot but there was me thinking the more noise I handle the higher my ldls will be but I was wrong yet again,I'm just lost and desperate here.