So Tired

[Apocalypse77]

I am so tired. I am continuously worried about tinnitus, I think about it while going to church, while watching the tv I think about it all the time. Christmas was the only time I actually felt happy for the whole day.

I have made some poor choices with tinnitus but gladly my tinnitus hasn't got extremely louder by these choices, and I am pretty happy about some of the things I did that may have made my tinnitus slightly louder, because they have gave me good memories.

I am worried about all this stress. Everyday I think: "oh no... I shouldn't be here, my t will get louder" "run now" "put earplugs on." I have heard some people can't even read books because of tinnitus? What is their T so loud, should I just get locked in my room and not go out anymore?

Time hasn't made any difference. Some say I should use earplugs everywhere, some say I should be in loud environments so my ears get used to noises. So that is why I do both of these things, should I just give up earplugs, but then it may lead to permanent LOUD TINNITUS.

Thank you for reading
Will this ever get better...... so tired

 

[glynis]

Hi @Apocalypse77 ,
Sorry to hear your having a tough time with tinnitus.
Try not to worry about your tinnitus as It won't make a difference only make you sad too.
Go by how you are -
If the environment is like you can talk normal and hear sounds at that level you will be fine.
If you have to shout in that environment then pop in your plugs.
Remember you are the wise one protecting your ears around extra loud sound and other people are putting there ears in danger every day with out knowing.
Take comfort in that and try not think about tinnitus and just try enjoy life now and get to know what sounds your ears are happy to be around.
Love glynis x

 

[Apocalypse77]

If you have to shout in that environment then pop in your plugs.

I have never been with T in that loud places that I would have to shout to be heard.

 

[Apocalypse77]

I think I have got a permanent spike from the new year. I don't really know. I can't hear my T but it was so loud in the morning

 

[glynis]

I can't hear my T but it was so loud in the morning

I hope you have a better weekend and some fun too..
Love glynis

 

[Sven]

The others who say they have become accustomed are simply lying.

Why would they? I understand where you're coming from, but the level of T differs from one person to another and sometimes it actually does disappear into the background noise and not being bothersome at all.

 

[fishbone]

One of the best scientific studies says that tinnitus causes obsession day and night, and this is precisely what happens to you. The others who say they have become accustomed are simply lying. How could one get used to having a meaningless life, that is, without peace as our main goal?

You are speaking from your own point of view and experience(being negative). Life becomes meaningless IF YOU make it like that. Obsession could be a reality, that is one point that I will agree on. People that don't have tinnitus can also experience a lack of peace, so that point is not valid either.

What is the point of lying about tinnitus and habituation. What thrill does one get from lying? What compensation? What joy? You seem to bring up this INVALID theory all the time. It's your own stigma towards tinnitus, that makes you say this. It's not the reality and not a factual proof at all.....

Sure a lot of folks, do have it hard and coping/habituation can be hard to achieve. Some folks (including myself) achieved it after many years of patience and effort and re-shaping of our thoughts and lives.

I come here especially for the newcomers to SHOW that they can live their life, even with intrusive and chaotic tinnitus. I don't want newcomers to read horror stories and negativity all day and say "wow, I will never be able to live with my tinnitus".

My life ain't no cake walk but I sure as hell will not let, innocent newcomers read crap posts and negativity posts all day either.....That's why I was sent to this site to be the positivity IT NEEDS!!!!

 

[glynis]

The others who say they have become accustomed are simply lying.

I understand you feeling that way if your having a tough time and feeling depressed and nothing look forward too.
Lot's of members on here do live a for filling life even with tinnitus and happy.

Some members find it hard and forget how to have fun as the unwanted emotions might have triggered depression and that adds to how you cope and both tinnitus and depression need help for both.

Life can get back to normal and I know because I pushed hard to get my life back on track and could not be happier even with what I have to cope with.
I hope you get to this point also.
Love glynis

 

[Red]

One of the best scientific studies says that tinnitus causes obsession day and night, and this is precisely what happens to you. The others who say they have become accustomed are simply lying. How could one get used to having a meaningless life, that is, without peace as our main goal?

Life is brutal but that is also part of life. Tinnitus is not the only awful thing that can happen to you. It is not the most awful thing that can happen to you. It seems that there are those who have nothing to live for. I wonder about these people even when, from my point of view, their pain isn't that great. I have gone through two months of constant pain. Everything I do making myself in more pain. Laughing, crying, smiling. Just being happy put me in pain. Life sucks but I still have things to live for.

If you don't find something to live for then you'll just keep driving yourself insane until you finally "do it."

 

[fishbone]

You can not be in two places at the same time, or you are in heaven or in hell, besides these two places are far from each other.

Taking into account the definition of hell, it is clear that all the time you have agreed with me, hell is a place of torment to which the dead go and when one is dead no longer have the meaning of life that the living have.

But if your comments are of any use to me, it is to know that the day I die and go to the physical hell, that have been taught us, even among those torments I will find tormented souls that cling uselessly to supposed positive ideas.

The only thing you have to accept is not tinnitus, but the fact that we are no longer part of the world of the living, and that the life´s sense has been replaced by the death´s sense.

Keep being negative, and i'll stay positive

I just finished my workout with some low music and i'm gonna enjoy my day. I doubt my intrusive tinnitus, will stop me from doing this....

 

[Apocalypse77]

One of the best scientific studies says that tinnitus causes obsession day and night, and this is precisely what happens to you. The others who say they have become accustomed are simply lying. How could one get used to having a meaningless life, that is, without peace as our main goal?

hmmm..... how loud is your T?