Again, I think your right. I know when this whole thing initially started for me 2 days before the onset of a pretty bad cold I didn't pay it any attention and still had a normal life and ignored the sound when it was present, but my thinking at the time was that it will go away. A week after the cold was gone and I still had the T, well then I went into panic mode and I am aware of it almost all the time. So I associated the sound to a negative emotion. Reading posts and other forums I think it keeps reinforcing that I have T. Right now it sounds impossible that I can ignore it again, but everyone says that it takes time. Bed time is the worst for me.
Do you mask your T when going to bed?
Polar Bear -
I can tell, you have a handle on this thing. You have essentially encapsulated what Jastreboff says. (I'm only on p. 60, of his book, so....let's say we seem to be "in the right direction".)
You ask about my sleep: When I first got "T", I was totally freaking out, and I couldn't sleep. I took off some days from work and I tried to sleep. I was getting at the end of my rope, because lack of sleep has that effect. So, I called my psychiatrist who I hadn't seen for about 4 years. She prescribed Remeron. I was afraid to take it, because I hated taking Paxil several years ago. So my P-doc says, "Take it!". Like jumping out of an airplane I took that first Remeron, and I slept. In fact, I sleep great. No, I am not a Remeron salesman!
Erik -
Once again, I'm impressed that you also read Jastreboff's book! (Don't spoil the ending. I'm not that far
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The more I read this book, I understand how negativity reinforces tinnitus.
Let me pose a question: Do dogs have tinnitus? Probably, I would think. Does a dog with tinnitus think negatively about his tinnitus? I doubt it. Thinking negatively is more of a human quality. A dog with tinnitus just "gets on with things". It's just a sound to dog, and it can't grow and grow into a vicious cyle. Only humans are able to create these vicious cycles, at least on the cerabral cortext level of thought. A dog probably thinks his tinnitus is just a bee flying around the room!
There are a lot of negative voices out their who can dissuade people from thinking they can make progress. We have doctors saying "There is no cure" and we also have a lot of negative information on the Internet - even on websites like this. You can't escape this negativity, because it's a part of the Bell curve. We need to read at our discretion, keeping in mind that negative comments will undermine our efforts to get better. Try to stay positive. The more a person understands what is causing tinnitus, the less significant a factor will tinnitus be in their life. Otherwise, to be ignorant and freaking out all the time fixes nothing. Knowledge allows habituation.
It's amazing that Jastrebroff doesn't even distinguish tinnitus severity in terms of loudness: It's meanlingless to him. He says that any case of tinnitus can be habituated, no matter what the cause. Almost like reading Nietche, about the power of mind over body.