Hello everyone,
I've never posted for support before because before I felt I didn't need but I am now fighting what feels to be a losing battle.
I am now experiencing a spike with a new sound, one even higher pitched and louder, and I am not handling it well at all. Just earlier in the day yesterday I felt I was on the way to recovery as my tinnitus seemed to be quieter than the initial onset as indicated by being able to mask it with lower volumes with my Bose SleepBuds.
Later in the night I wanted to do some ACRN type sound therapy, which I had only done once before. I was looking for my tinnitus sound, and was having trouble finding it, so I raised the volume a little bit. I'm sure all of you are thinking why did I do that, yes I should've been smarter than that and am completely disappointed with myself. I noticed that I still heard the sound I thought was a close match after I stopped trying to find it. I now have a new tinnitus sound, even higher pitched and louder than before. It's almost completely unmaskabale, I hear it even while driving. I also hear it in my voice when I talk, it's completely horrible.
I now have had to raise my Bose SleepBuds two increments to just balance the sound with the Cascade sound. I am honestly beyond terrified that this is spike / new sound is here to stay, and at this level. I am very scared and in need of some help. This sounds is blaringly loud and I'm not even sure if I'll be able to afford treatment anytime soon as I have to leave my job because of the lack of sleep I have been getting from this tinnitus and I fear it will only get worse from here.
Last night, even with my usual tool kit for sleep, I kept getting a frightened startle type reflex as I would dose off because of this new sound. My health is already compromised and I'm afraid this is going to push me over the edge. The only reason I haven't jumped off myself is my beautiful wife you see here, and now in afraid I won't be able to make it until something is here to help me. I went to the urgent care and asked for prednisone. The doctor called an ENT but they refused. All she said is that tinnitus can fluctuate, and may get better over time. I have Kaiser Permante which I have found to be completely useless but agree in the hopes that it might get better.
Ive been trying not to avoid the sound to promote habituation but am not having any luck. I'm still having an anxious response to it, and worst of all I was rushed out before I remembered to ask about getting my old anxiety medication again. CA, nowhere near Neuromod and am now short of money and feeling completely helpless but at least hoping it'll slowly start going down as it was before.. my hyperacusis has also returned to some degree so maybe that's a good thing if I make it in time for Lenire and miraculously become able to afford it..
I've never posted for support before because before I felt I didn't need but I am now fighting what feels to be a losing battle.
I am now experiencing a spike with a new sound, one even higher pitched and louder, and I am not handling it well at all. Just earlier in the day yesterday I felt I was on the way to recovery as my tinnitus seemed to be quieter than the initial onset as indicated by being able to mask it with lower volumes with my Bose SleepBuds.
Later in the night I wanted to do some ACRN type sound therapy, which I had only done once before. I was looking for my tinnitus sound, and was having trouble finding it, so I raised the volume a little bit. I'm sure all of you are thinking why did I do that, yes I should've been smarter than that and am completely disappointed with myself. I noticed that I still heard the sound I thought was a close match after I stopped trying to find it. I now have a new tinnitus sound, even higher pitched and louder than before. It's almost completely unmaskabale, I hear it even while driving. I also hear it in my voice when I talk, it's completely horrible.
I now have had to raise my Bose SleepBuds two increments to just balance the sound with the Cascade sound. I am honestly beyond terrified that this is spike / new sound is here to stay, and at this level. I am very scared and in need of some help. This sounds is blaringly loud and I'm not even sure if I'll be able to afford treatment anytime soon as I have to leave my job because of the lack of sleep I have been getting from this tinnitus and I fear it will only get worse from here.
Last night, even with my usual tool kit for sleep, I kept getting a frightened startle type reflex as I would dose off because of this new sound. My health is already compromised and I'm afraid this is going to push me over the edge. The only reason I haven't jumped off myself is my beautiful wife you see here, and now in afraid I won't be able to make it until something is here to help me. I went to the urgent care and asked for prednisone. The doctor called an ENT but they refused. All she said is that tinnitus can fluctuate, and may get better over time. I have Kaiser Permante which I have found to be completely useless but agree in the hopes that it might get better.
Ive been trying not to avoid the sound to promote habituation but am not having any luck. I'm still having an anxious response to it, and worst of all I was rushed out before I remembered to ask about getting my old anxiety medication again. CA, nowhere near Neuromod and am now short of money and feeling completely helpless but at least hoping it'll slowly start going down as it was before.. my hyperacusis has also returned to some degree so maybe that's a good thing if I make it in time for Lenire and miraculously become able to afford it..
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