- Mar 20, 2020
- 20
- Tinnitus Since
- 02/2020
- Cause of Tinnitus
- STRESS, high frequency sensorineural loss (birth)
Hi everyone,
I am a 32yo/F and have been a reader here for 2 months before deciding to share my story.
I have moderate high frequency sensorineural hearing loss from birth. I have managed this unaided and it never was much of a problem since my other hearing is in the normal range.
I experienced a sudden onset of tinnitus in February after a period of very high stress. I look after my ears well and I have not had any recent noise exposure/ infection or cause I can attribute this to. Before this, I didn't know tinnitus could be chronic. Reading it is incurable truly ruined my life.
After visiting ENT in March, my hearing has stayed at the exact level as before, as it has all my life (attached picture in grey under blue/ red compares to 2014 audiogram).
I requested blood tests to be done and everything looks normal except:
Serum TSH level 5.96 mU/L [0.35 - 5.5]
Serum vitamin B12 level 216.0 ng/L [211.0 - 911.0]. As far as doctors are concerned, they're all fine.
I have done a lot of research during this time and am taking a multivitamin, B12, Z, Mg, omega3 (EPA+DHA), ACV with 'the mother'. Not sure if any of that will help my tinnitus, but it might address some dietary deficiencies and help my overall health, at least...
I have tried so hard to stay positive and wish it will go away as there is nothing wrong with my ears and what's wrong has been there all my life. Why this, why now. My tinnitus started on the left ear only, then moved to the other and centrally in my head, now it switches all the time. It used to be extremely unbearable 10/10, could hear it on top of everything possible. Around the ENT appt time, 3-4 weeks from onset, it was 3/10 but it has since got worse again. Right now I have high static in my head and a very high pitched sound mainly on my left ear. It has no wave shape anymore, meaning it is completely deafening as it doesn't stop not even for fractions of a second and my head is constantly buzzing. I have eliminated stress and stayed at home recently (hello COVID-19!) which I thought would be key, but I can't seem to get my brain that is extremely triggered to calm down.
The only thing that has helped is sound therapy and being in sound rich environments. I scored 100 on the tinnitus handicap inventory, which is considered catastrophic and was significant for anxiety and depression. ENT offered CBT only. Not sure I believe or care about therapy. I want the sound gone. It is in my head but I don't control it. I did not suffer from any anxiety prior to this, nor do I want any medicine in my body for any of that crap.
I cry myself to sleep every night trying to get inspiration from the success stories in this forum. Tbh I don't find them inspiring at all bar a few, no one has got cured, just learnt to live with it. I know myself and despite people saying you will habituate, everyone is like that at the start - I will not, I will drive myself to insanity. This has truly ruined my life, all my hard work for a better career, my relationships, everything. I am damned to hell.
I am a 32yo/F and have been a reader here for 2 months before deciding to share my story.
I have moderate high frequency sensorineural hearing loss from birth. I have managed this unaided and it never was much of a problem since my other hearing is in the normal range.
I experienced a sudden onset of tinnitus in February after a period of very high stress. I look after my ears well and I have not had any recent noise exposure/ infection or cause I can attribute this to. Before this, I didn't know tinnitus could be chronic. Reading it is incurable truly ruined my life.
After visiting ENT in March, my hearing has stayed at the exact level as before, as it has all my life (attached picture in grey under blue/ red compares to 2014 audiogram).
I requested blood tests to be done and everything looks normal except:
Serum TSH level 5.96 mU/L [0.35 - 5.5]
Serum vitamin B12 level 216.0 ng/L [211.0 - 911.0]. As far as doctors are concerned, they're all fine.
I have done a lot of research during this time and am taking a multivitamin, B12, Z, Mg, omega3 (EPA+DHA), ACV with 'the mother'. Not sure if any of that will help my tinnitus, but it might address some dietary deficiencies and help my overall health, at least...
I have tried so hard to stay positive and wish it will go away as there is nothing wrong with my ears and what's wrong has been there all my life. Why this, why now. My tinnitus started on the left ear only, then moved to the other and centrally in my head, now it switches all the time. It used to be extremely unbearable 10/10, could hear it on top of everything possible. Around the ENT appt time, 3-4 weeks from onset, it was 3/10 but it has since got worse again. Right now I have high static in my head and a very high pitched sound mainly on my left ear. It has no wave shape anymore, meaning it is completely deafening as it doesn't stop not even for fractions of a second and my head is constantly buzzing. I have eliminated stress and stayed at home recently (hello COVID-19!) which I thought would be key, but I can't seem to get my brain that is extremely triggered to calm down.
The only thing that has helped is sound therapy and being in sound rich environments. I scored 100 on the tinnitus handicap inventory, which is considered catastrophic and was significant for anxiety and depression. ENT offered CBT only. Not sure I believe or care about therapy. I want the sound gone. It is in my head but I don't control it. I did not suffer from any anxiety prior to this, nor do I want any medicine in my body for any of that crap.
I cry myself to sleep every night trying to get inspiration from the success stories in this forum. Tbh I don't find them inspiring at all bar a few, no one has got cured, just learnt to live with it. I know myself and despite people saying you will habituate, everyone is like that at the start - I will not, I will drive myself to insanity. This has truly ruined my life, all my hard work for a better career, my relationships, everything. I am damned to hell.