Hi,
My name is Valentina and I live in Rome, Italy.
I've had tinnitus since 2005. I was lying in bed with my head in a funny position and I suddenly started hearing a ringing in my left ear. At first I totally panicked. I went to an ENT (totally useless) who did not detect any hearing loss. I tried sound generators etc. I ended habituating to tinnitus, but not easily at all.
All good (I could not even remember I had tinnitus, it was just a very fainted noise that almost kept me company when falling asleep) until May 2018 when I underwent an in vitro fertilization to have my first child who is now almost two years old. I had to take hormones but the worst part is I was exposed to a HUGE amount of stress and my tinnitus worsened real bad. It increased in loudness and other sound added up (like a horrible kind of engine sound in my head), even one sound in my right ear which had always been tinnitus free.
After getting pregnant things got better, my right ear was no longer affected at all, maybe also due to corticosteroids I had to take during the first three months. Around half way of my pregnancy I could not even tell you if I still had tinnitus or not.
Again last January 2021, after months of struggling with stress and anxiety due to a drowning relationship with my son's father as well as a slight postpartum depression, my "friends" came back in full force.
At first I only had my ringing again so I bought a sound generator and could easily mask it at night for a while... then the engine noise in my head was back (comes and goes), then a bunch of other weird sounds that come and go as well, until about a week ago when a new high-pitched hissing/screeching electrical sound appeared. I was coping quite well until this "new entry". I do not have it all the time, but when I do it's on top of my old ringing and super intrusive, it's like having a ringing + hiss + sudden electric shocks in my ears. I also get it in short real high-pitched ringings which last a few seconds and disappear.
During the day I can manage better but at night it's true hell. I have TMJ issues, bad neck issues (cervical hernias) and anxiety.
I've been seeing an osteopath, it really helped at first but not anymore. I also go to CBT (I've been going forever regardless of my tinnitus) and wear a night guard at night and sometimes during the day. I do not take any drugs other than Melatonin.
I am so discouraged as I have been trying to keep it together since January hoping it was just a temporary condition but it seems to be getting worse, which scares me so much. It seems like every time I manage to live with it a new sound comes along. I have a two-year old to look after and after all the struggles I had to face to have him I do not want to jeopardize my capacity to being a good mother, I want to be there for him, be happy for both and live my life to the fullest.
I may sound melodramatic (I am Italian after all lol) but seriously, you all know how hard it is to carry on with our normal life having tinnitus, let alone being in charge of a baby basically on your own...
I'd appreciate it if you could suggest any check-up that could be useful at this point as I do not understand why my tinnitus is getting worse instead of subsiding a little. I had a brain MRI in 2018 (negative), and a new Cervical MRI two days ago (I was supposed to do a new brain one as well but could not stand it and left). I also had TMJ X-rays (results tomorrow).
@Greg Sacramento and @Michael Leigh, sorry to tag you for support but I have been reading this forum for a while now and you seem to have an extensive knowledge of the matter.
Thanks in advance for taking the time to read me =)
V.
My name is Valentina and I live in Rome, Italy.
I've had tinnitus since 2005. I was lying in bed with my head in a funny position and I suddenly started hearing a ringing in my left ear. At first I totally panicked. I went to an ENT (totally useless) who did not detect any hearing loss. I tried sound generators etc. I ended habituating to tinnitus, but not easily at all.
All good (I could not even remember I had tinnitus, it was just a very fainted noise that almost kept me company when falling asleep) until May 2018 when I underwent an in vitro fertilization to have my first child who is now almost two years old. I had to take hormones but the worst part is I was exposed to a HUGE amount of stress and my tinnitus worsened real bad. It increased in loudness and other sound added up (like a horrible kind of engine sound in my head), even one sound in my right ear which had always been tinnitus free.
After getting pregnant things got better, my right ear was no longer affected at all, maybe also due to corticosteroids I had to take during the first three months. Around half way of my pregnancy I could not even tell you if I still had tinnitus or not.
Again last January 2021, after months of struggling with stress and anxiety due to a drowning relationship with my son's father as well as a slight postpartum depression, my "friends" came back in full force.
At first I only had my ringing again so I bought a sound generator and could easily mask it at night for a while... then the engine noise in my head was back (comes and goes), then a bunch of other weird sounds that come and go as well, until about a week ago when a new high-pitched hissing/screeching electrical sound appeared. I was coping quite well until this "new entry". I do not have it all the time, but when I do it's on top of my old ringing and super intrusive, it's like having a ringing + hiss + sudden electric shocks in my ears. I also get it in short real high-pitched ringings which last a few seconds and disappear.
During the day I can manage better but at night it's true hell. I have TMJ issues, bad neck issues (cervical hernias) and anxiety.
I've been seeing an osteopath, it really helped at first but not anymore. I also go to CBT (I've been going forever regardless of my tinnitus) and wear a night guard at night and sometimes during the day. I do not take any drugs other than Melatonin.
I am so discouraged as I have been trying to keep it together since January hoping it was just a temporary condition but it seems to be getting worse, which scares me so much. It seems like every time I manage to live with it a new sound comes along. I have a two-year old to look after and after all the struggles I had to face to have him I do not want to jeopardize my capacity to being a good mother, I want to be there for him, be happy for both and live my life to the fullest.
I may sound melodramatic (I am Italian after all lol) but seriously, you all know how hard it is to carry on with our normal life having tinnitus, let alone being in charge of a baby basically on your own...
I'd appreciate it if you could suggest any check-up that could be useful at this point as I do not understand why my tinnitus is getting worse instead of subsiding a little. I had a brain MRI in 2018 (negative), and a new Cervical MRI two days ago (I was supposed to do a new brain one as well but could not stand it and left). I also had TMJ X-rays (results tomorrow).
@Greg Sacramento and @Michael Leigh, sorry to tag you for support but I have been reading this forum for a while now and you seem to have an extensive knowledge of the matter.
Thanks in advance for taking the time to read me =)
V.