- Dec 24, 2017
- 152
- Tinnitus Since
- 12/2017
- Cause of Tinnitus
- Unknown, Satan perhaps?
I'm not suicidal anymore and I know this isn't the success story we log on wanting to read but after sitting here thinking about where I was 6 weeks ago and where I am now IS success FOR ME!
No my tinnitus is not gone, is it lower? Maybe but then again that might be my friend Xanax doing its job who knows.
I haven't been taking any supplements or anything aside from magnesium oil that I spray on after a bath or shower but I've bought them, I tried Zinc for 2 days and noticed a spike so stopped the zinc, was drinking ACV which seemed to have a slight affect on the volume but that stuff is hard to get down so it's hard to take daily.
I saw an audiologist who gave me some hope, my hearing is close to perfect. But still not sure what caused my T, in the beginning anger overtook me 24/7 I couldn't get out of bed and I missed a month of work in December but I'm slowly getting back to life, my dr prescribed me lexapro but I've been afraid to start it because of the horror stories I've read on here about AD's making it worse.
I had a day last Sunday (super bowl Sunday) where I went hours not even thinking of my T which NEVER happens! I was so busy cooking and getting ready for the event that I felt almost normal, BUT then I started listening for it and sure enough it resurfaced loud and clear. I would say mine is a 8/10 I hear it over everything it's very high pitched.
But somehow I'm less bothered by it most days now, I mean don't get me wrong I still get fucking sad and angry and wonder what caused it and if I could have avoided this torture but I see many recover completely and think to myself, that could be me.
Dwelling on doom and gloom along with others on this forum stuck in misery is not going to help anyone and I'm sure the ones I see chastising ppl on a regular basis for having anything positive to say while still having T will dig in on me after this post but it is what it is.
I pray we all find silence again one day BUT I can guarantee that won't happen with a negative outlook.
Unrelated but my mom was diagnosed with stage 4 TERMINAL ovarian cancer in 2015 they gave her 6 fucking months to live!!! Guess what she's still here matter of fact she is on her way to drop off my daughter after watching her for the night. She hasn't taken one single thing to stop the process from killing her the only thing my mother has is a POSITIVE outlook and strength like nothing I've ever seen! She is amazing and if she can walk through life with cancer throughout her ENTIRE body then I believe I can find a way to walk through life with this constant tone in my head OH AND BY THE WAY she also has had Tinnitus for over 17 years it started when she was diagnosed with lymes disease and never complained or mentioned it until I started going through it! I never know when she is in pain, feeling weak, being tortured mentally because she doesn't fucking complain about a damn thing. Just a thought, negative thoughts create negative outcomes!
I hope I can soon come on here and give a success story that most of you will find more worth reading as in my T is gone completely, I'll be trying acupuncture and some supplements soon so I will keep you all posted.
May we all be T free day one day but for now at least I no longer google "painless suicide"
No my tinnitus is not gone, is it lower? Maybe but then again that might be my friend Xanax doing its job who knows.
I haven't been taking any supplements or anything aside from magnesium oil that I spray on after a bath or shower but I've bought them, I tried Zinc for 2 days and noticed a spike so stopped the zinc, was drinking ACV which seemed to have a slight affect on the volume but that stuff is hard to get down so it's hard to take daily.
I saw an audiologist who gave me some hope, my hearing is close to perfect. But still not sure what caused my T, in the beginning anger overtook me 24/7 I couldn't get out of bed and I missed a month of work in December but I'm slowly getting back to life, my dr prescribed me lexapro but I've been afraid to start it because of the horror stories I've read on here about AD's making it worse.
I had a day last Sunday (super bowl Sunday) where I went hours not even thinking of my T which NEVER happens! I was so busy cooking and getting ready for the event that I felt almost normal, BUT then I started listening for it and sure enough it resurfaced loud and clear. I would say mine is a 8/10 I hear it over everything it's very high pitched.
But somehow I'm less bothered by it most days now, I mean don't get me wrong I still get fucking sad and angry and wonder what caused it and if I could have avoided this torture but I see many recover completely and think to myself, that could be me.
Dwelling on doom and gloom along with others on this forum stuck in misery is not going to help anyone and I'm sure the ones I see chastising ppl on a regular basis for having anything positive to say while still having T will dig in on me after this post but it is what it is.
I pray we all find silence again one day BUT I can guarantee that won't happen with a negative outlook.
Unrelated but my mom was diagnosed with stage 4 TERMINAL ovarian cancer in 2015 they gave her 6 fucking months to live!!! Guess what she's still here matter of fact she is on her way to drop off my daughter after watching her for the night. She hasn't taken one single thing to stop the process from killing her the only thing my mother has is a POSITIVE outlook and strength like nothing I've ever seen! She is amazing and if she can walk through life with cancer throughout her ENTIRE body then I believe I can find a way to walk through life with this constant tone in my head OH AND BY THE WAY she also has had Tinnitus for over 17 years it started when she was diagnosed with lymes disease and never complained or mentioned it until I started going through it! I never know when she is in pain, feeling weak, being tortured mentally because she doesn't fucking complain about a damn thing. Just a thought, negative thoughts create negative outcomes!
I hope I can soon come on here and give a success story that most of you will find more worth reading as in my T is gone completely, I'll be trying acupuncture and some supplements soon so I will keep you all posted.
May we all be T free day one day but for now at least I no longer google "painless suicide"