- Jun 30, 2016
- 57
- Tinnitus Since
- June 2016
- Cause of Tinnitus
- Flu Virus >>Middle Ear Test >>> Ear Infection/Medication
I had mild/moderate Tinnitus for about 6 months, compared to what it is now i was still living my normal life, and it was just annoying, not unbearable. i only really heard it at night, and even then i could drown it out with my phone playing somethingto sleep, but there some nights i wish i didn't have it, but it in no way controlled my life.
On a routine trip to my GP he asked if i still had Tinnitus and i said yes, so he referred me to an ENT becuase he thought i had it "long enough it needs to be dealt with".
At the ENT i had to have a hearing test before hand.
it was a 2 step test, firstly a tympanometry, this is what as caused my insane spike in Tinnitus. I dont know the specifics of a Tympanometry apart from it being used to measure the health of the inner ear, but from my experience it was incredibly loud, enough i could feel it damaging my ears.
And then a hearing response test, both sets of results came back normal. And when i finally got to see the ENT he said what pretty much every ENT says ... "just have to live with it" to which i thought was fine since i was still hearing my normal T.
It wasnt until after i got home and into my room i began to hear my new T, if i had to rate my old T, id put it at a 4/10, this new T is a 8-9/10.
Strangely enough the 2nd day, it was almost gone, T in general, i even called up my ENT to thank him.
The 3rd day it came back in full force.
Its very high pitched that fluctuates around, like someone is playing tennis inside my head, the absolute worst part is that i can hear it over anything im doing, there is nothing i can drown it out with, and the level of volume it would take to match it would probably damage my ears.
I didnt know much about Tinnitus because it never bothered me enough to research it, but holy F*&K i wish i had'nt
Im freaking out at the moment because all the research im finding online is that
- Tinnitus is permanent, you just have to live with it, it can take years to get a tiny bit better/ or worse.
- People commit suicide because of it, ( il'll be honest, i have never ever ever thought about it until now)
- There is no cure and there never will be because its too complex, and any sign of progress is decades away, i can barely wait another week let alone decades, and even if by some miricale they find one what if it doesn't work on me.
- Drugs / Clinical tests can make it worse.
- Every News story i find "New hope for Tinnitus suffers" *Date 2011* etc...
- This only gets worse as you age.
- The only treatment is mental therapy, hearing aids and other devices u plug into your ears ( i cant wear a hearing aid at age 23 god dammit).
I've never really had any sort of aliment in my life and all im thinking is Why me... every day i watch how my Roommates do whatever they want, and it makes me insanely frustrated that they can lie down at the end of the day and fall asleep or relax or just think.
Its really starting to have a negative impact on my life, it takes me forever to get to sleep now, and if i wake up early its impossible to get back to sleep.
If i somehow manage to find the will to get out of bed il set at my Pc open some work and just think about my Tinnitus... and my job ( Film Student) requires heavy amounts of thought.
I barely eat, i've lost all interest in my regular life, i just stay confined to my room hoping manicly it will just....go...or atleast calm down.
I sometimes have moments where it is masked, but then i just think about how as soon as i go inside or to a quiet place its going to be there making me depressed.
Its waking me up is well, it took me 11 hours to get out of bed today, just because all i wanted to do was lie down and pray it would stop.
I've had it for 12 days now, and i dont feel it letting up, its getting harder and harder each day, because i don't think i can face this being permanent.
The worst thing is that i start my Final Year of University in a few months and if it stays like this i cant see anyway of me getting a good grade, let alone passing. Im supposed to be working in preparation to 3rd year, but if what ive read about it taking months-years to calm down i am screwed.
My parents are supportive in general but i dont think they will take my Tinnitus seriously, and i cant afford to put my studies aside for something like this. I already dropped out of University once due to Depression and Anxiety. If i did it again my parents would probably give up on me period.
And after University i'm supposed to be leaving the house and starting my own life.
I feel like my life is falling apart all because of this stupid hearing test i never should of had in the first place, ,i dont really have the kind of personalty to just accept something like this, it needs to be gone, or atleast go back down to a level that i can mask it.
Funny, id do anything and i mean anything to have my old Tinnitus back...
Anyway, do you think this new T is temporary or now permanent?
Is there anything i should be doing apart from waiting.
On a routine trip to my GP he asked if i still had Tinnitus and i said yes, so he referred me to an ENT becuase he thought i had it "long enough it needs to be dealt with".
At the ENT i had to have a hearing test before hand.
it was a 2 step test, firstly a tympanometry, this is what as caused my insane spike in Tinnitus. I dont know the specifics of a Tympanometry apart from it being used to measure the health of the inner ear, but from my experience it was incredibly loud, enough i could feel it damaging my ears.
And then a hearing response test, both sets of results came back normal. And when i finally got to see the ENT he said what pretty much every ENT says ... "just have to live with it" to which i thought was fine since i was still hearing my normal T.
It wasnt until after i got home and into my room i began to hear my new T, if i had to rate my old T, id put it at a 4/10, this new T is a 8-9/10.
Strangely enough the 2nd day, it was almost gone, T in general, i even called up my ENT to thank him.
The 3rd day it came back in full force.
Its very high pitched that fluctuates around, like someone is playing tennis inside my head, the absolute worst part is that i can hear it over anything im doing, there is nothing i can drown it out with, and the level of volume it would take to match it would probably damage my ears.
I didnt know much about Tinnitus because it never bothered me enough to research it, but holy F*&K i wish i had'nt
Im freaking out at the moment because all the research im finding online is that
- Tinnitus is permanent, you just have to live with it, it can take years to get a tiny bit better/ or worse.
- People commit suicide because of it, ( il'll be honest, i have never ever ever thought about it until now)
- There is no cure and there never will be because its too complex, and any sign of progress is decades away, i can barely wait another week let alone decades, and even if by some miricale they find one what if it doesn't work on me.
- Drugs / Clinical tests can make it worse.
- Every News story i find "New hope for Tinnitus suffers" *Date 2011* etc...
- This only gets worse as you age.
- The only treatment is mental therapy, hearing aids and other devices u plug into your ears ( i cant wear a hearing aid at age 23 god dammit).
I've never really had any sort of aliment in my life and all im thinking is Why me... every day i watch how my Roommates do whatever they want, and it makes me insanely frustrated that they can lie down at the end of the day and fall asleep or relax or just think.
Its really starting to have a negative impact on my life, it takes me forever to get to sleep now, and if i wake up early its impossible to get back to sleep.
If i somehow manage to find the will to get out of bed il set at my Pc open some work and just think about my Tinnitus... and my job ( Film Student) requires heavy amounts of thought.
I barely eat, i've lost all interest in my regular life, i just stay confined to my room hoping manicly it will just....go...or atleast calm down.
I sometimes have moments where it is masked, but then i just think about how as soon as i go inside or to a quiet place its going to be there making me depressed.
Its waking me up is well, it took me 11 hours to get out of bed today, just because all i wanted to do was lie down and pray it would stop.
I've had it for 12 days now, and i dont feel it letting up, its getting harder and harder each day, because i don't think i can face this being permanent.
The worst thing is that i start my Final Year of University in a few months and if it stays like this i cant see anyway of me getting a good grade, let alone passing. Im supposed to be working in preparation to 3rd year, but if what ive read about it taking months-years to calm down i am screwed.
My parents are supportive in general but i dont think they will take my Tinnitus seriously, and i cant afford to put my studies aside for something like this. I already dropped out of University once due to Depression and Anxiety. If i did it again my parents would probably give up on me period.
And after University i'm supposed to be leaving the house and starting my own life.
I feel like my life is falling apart all because of this stupid hearing test i never should of had in the first place, ,i dont really have the kind of personalty to just accept something like this, it needs to be gone, or atleast go back down to a level that i can mask it.
Funny, id do anything and i mean anything to have my old Tinnitus back...
Anyway, do you think this new T is temporary or now permanent?
Is there anything i should be doing apart from waiting.