well,you have your schooling. you have something to live for. I have to be determined - I have no choice. I have a 10 year old son I have to take care of. I can't just tell him go take care of yourself. so I have to adapt to this,no matter what. nor can I take it out on him,in the respect of not doing anything or going anywhere with him. this weekend,he wants to go see that new RoboCop movie that's coming out.actually,LOL, I do too! I love those films! but since this one is PG, I feel it will be more appropriate for him. anyway - sidetracked - I can say no,worry about my T., and just mope around the house, or i can take him,wear my new earplugs I got,and have a good time with him.
this week will be my make-or-break week I feel,as I'm off work all week - today is day 2 of 7 days off that I put in to have off way back in November - and from the hours of 7:30 AM - 3:00 PM I'm here by myself. so we'll see how I adjust during all that "silence".
is this annoying - oh hell yes! it was bugging the s%$t out of me yesterday,when I had my first real spike. but I still did the dishes,did the laundry,made lunch and dinner,cleaned the litterbox,did the kids homework with him,watched some TV, was on here and other various boards,went to wal-Mart, deposited a check at the bank, etc. and I had ringing the whole time. again - no choice.
try to look at it as you have no choice but to deal with it because of your schooling. not saying it will help,but if you can teach your brain to think it HAS to get over this because of what you need to do,it might,just might,help it to deal with it quicker and.or better.