- Apr 30, 2014
- 533
- Tinnitus Since
- 04/2014 (many increases since then)
- Cause of Tinnitus
- Progressive hearing loss / noise / ETD
One of my pitches, the one in my left ear, seems like it keeps getting higher pitched and louder. Like a dog whistle combined with a tea-kettle. It's so distressing I can even hear it in the shower cause it's not a low enough frequency to mask. How on earth can I habituate to all of this if I can't even ignore this one stupid tone?! I've even started taking melatonin to knock me out at night so i can go to sleep. I miss being able to sleep under my own power. And I miss being able to do things like go for a walk, listen to music, watch tv, play music, or even just browse the internet, without being distracted by this thing. After a few months the longest I can ignore it is a minute. I wanted to be habituated to this by the 6 month mark so when it becomes diagnosed as chronic, I wont even care that much. I don't want to take years to habituate but I'm so stuck right now. I've accepted that I will have it for the rest of my life, doesn't mean I like it or am okay with it.
I was happy for only one hour today. That's it.
I was happy for only one hour today. That's it.