Sorry to hear about you're cat
@Rosemerry my Mr. Peaches just vanished in March and we were together for 13 years. I miss him as he was my super support, especially during my panic attacks. He always came to greet me and was super excited!
I had a pretty good night of sleep, still woke up often. However, my dreams gave me the answer that I'm afraid of my T because I think it will change my personality. So then when I fell back to sleep I had a fun dream that screamed me and it felt like it was saying you're still you. I slept well the rest of the night.
Though I wonder if I'll get back to my peace of mine. I use to be able to stare off into space and zone out. Now I find it hard to zone out into a movie.