March is coming up and will be my 5th anniversary of my T life. I am living an absolutely enjoyable and abundant life despite my T screaming at me most mornings. What a change. 5 years ago I thought my good life, even my mortal life, would be over soon. Considering the immense sufferings I went through in the beginning, and the beauty of life I am enjoying and absorbing now, it is nothing but miracle. I praise the Lord for this miracle and I pray He will extend His love and mercy to help out all those who are in need of help.
Don't believe the lies from the T bully. It wants to control you, scare you, paint a distorted and catastrophic view of the future to cause you endless panic. It lies to you that no way you can accept this sound, no way you can escape its tyranny. These are nothing but lies, worse lies than what some politicians can spill out to you. LOL.
Stay hopeful and positive. Give your body TIME to absorb in the new condition. Stay calm as much as you can. Keep living. Keep believing. I am heading out to Hawaii in a few months to see my daughter and her new-born son. It is her first child after 14 years of marriage. We all thought she would be childless for life. But we pray hard for God's mercy on her (who really like kids) to give her a child. Miracle does happen. Never give up. In HI, I will see the coconut palms again. I lived in HI for 6 years during my university days. I learned some valuable lesson in life from observing these palm trees. They learn how to live in numerous wind storms (even hurricanes/typhoons in other areas) which otherwise would have uprooted most other trees. They flow with the fierce storms by bending, giving, by shedding their heavy leaves if needed, and by developing a firm root system. They don't resist something beyond their control (the storms), but accept the fierce storms and adapt to them. Even when a young palm seem to fall, it will lie low but the roots will still hold on to the ground. When the storm is over, it will bend up again and grow into some of the most beauty coconut palms you will ever see, as like these. May we learn from the coconut trees to stay firm and resilient, to learn to accept and flow during the fierce storm of T, or for that matter of life, and yet emerge unscathed with nothing but beauty to enjoy for the rest of our life. Amen.
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Thanks for all of your uplifting support and advice Billie on this forum! I've read your success story for hope and inspiration many times over. Please let me know how your trip to HI goes. Before I developed T two months ago I had many dreams of visiting Hawaii. We live in Buffalo and I would love to go to a place where it's sunny and warm all the time! After I got T I got this deluded idea that living in Hawaii would make me feel better because it was sunny and the frog sounds at night would mask my T (maybe it wasn't that deluded of an idea!). I looked up the sounds of the frogs on youtube and they are actually quite high pitched! Not quite what I was hoping for. Anyway, I still hope to visit Hawaii someday, was wondering if you could relay to me your experience of "sleeping with the coqui's" Congratulations too on your grandson!!
Claire
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