- Aug 29, 2018
- 214
- Tinnitus Since
- Very low since2004/Went haywire in 2018
- Cause of Tinnitus
- Loud noise in 04/Wedding dance floor and flying(?) in 18
I honestly don't know where to start, how to start, or what to do anymore. I just need answers. I just need help. I guess I will start with the good news...
For those who need a super quick summary, I went 14 years without my tinnitus (in one ear) being a problem, then it was aggravated on a crazy loud wedding dance floor on July 15th 2018 that brought me back into this awful world of Tinnitus, something I rarely ever thought about in those 14 years short of a few short term non serious spikes. So if the July 15th 2018 spike and return to this world at 34 years old wasn't horrific enough, I then developed what I believe was stress induced "head buzzing" one night after a flight while freaking out all day that the flight may have made my tinnitus worse. So the last 2 weeks I have been dealing with TWO tones, all while eventually calming down and trying to stay positive. I got "used" to the head buzzing and assumed it was stress induced and was too bad to be true and would eventually subside. And guess what, it soon did. Some mornings it would be non existent, and then this past Thursday and Friday, it was the best thing ever...
My tinnitus returned as close to its baseline as it had in the 2+ months now since my spike. Head buzz completely gone, only dealing with minor regular tinnitus in my one ear.
But it didn't last long. While I was telling my friends and family all the amazing news and beginning to pick my life back up in certain ways, I went to bed Friday night, and woke up after about 5 hours of sleeps with a throbbing sound in my one ear now along with the head buzz returned. It took me a little bit to figure out what was going on, but this was now pulsating tinnitus, the sound matching my heartbeat. Saturday came and went and it wasn't there anymore. Then just last night, Saturday night. SAME story. Woke up at 4am (ironically after a very bad/scary dream) with a PIERCING pulsating tinnitus. Never able to fall back asleep. A zombie now this entire weekend.
The regular tinnitus I can fight. The regular head buzz I can somehow push through until it fades. But THIS, I cannot fight. I lay in my bed right now after another horrible nights sleep scared, with the pulsating tinnitus STILL lingering. (seems like it was at its worse when laying down on pillow). What in the lords name is going on at this point. Is this all stress/anxiety induced? It does feel that way, but who knows. It should be noted that only recently did I even find out about Pulsating Tinnitus and I thought to myself oh thank god I don't have that. Did that maybe trigger this with my anxiety??? Why would this start NOW just when I was starting to do better?
Somebody please help and explain pulsating tinnitus to me. Is there treatment for it if I need it? Please God help me at this point. Thursday and Friday were like a miracle. Now I'm broken again, and worse than ever before. I will have to take sick leave from work for the first time in my career if this persists, because I cannot work on 4-5 hours of sleep every night.
For those who need a super quick summary, I went 14 years without my tinnitus (in one ear) being a problem, then it was aggravated on a crazy loud wedding dance floor on July 15th 2018 that brought me back into this awful world of Tinnitus, something I rarely ever thought about in those 14 years short of a few short term non serious spikes. So if the July 15th 2018 spike and return to this world at 34 years old wasn't horrific enough, I then developed what I believe was stress induced "head buzzing" one night after a flight while freaking out all day that the flight may have made my tinnitus worse. So the last 2 weeks I have been dealing with TWO tones, all while eventually calming down and trying to stay positive. I got "used" to the head buzzing and assumed it was stress induced and was too bad to be true and would eventually subside. And guess what, it soon did. Some mornings it would be non existent, and then this past Thursday and Friday, it was the best thing ever...
My tinnitus returned as close to its baseline as it had in the 2+ months now since my spike. Head buzz completely gone, only dealing with minor regular tinnitus in my one ear.
But it didn't last long. While I was telling my friends and family all the amazing news and beginning to pick my life back up in certain ways, I went to bed Friday night, and woke up after about 5 hours of sleeps with a throbbing sound in my one ear now along with the head buzz returned. It took me a little bit to figure out what was going on, but this was now pulsating tinnitus, the sound matching my heartbeat. Saturday came and went and it wasn't there anymore. Then just last night, Saturday night. SAME story. Woke up at 4am (ironically after a very bad/scary dream) with a PIERCING pulsating tinnitus. Never able to fall back asleep. A zombie now this entire weekend.
The regular tinnitus I can fight. The regular head buzz I can somehow push through until it fades. But THIS, I cannot fight. I lay in my bed right now after another horrible nights sleep scared, with the pulsating tinnitus STILL lingering. (seems like it was at its worse when laying down on pillow). What in the lords name is going on at this point. Is this all stress/anxiety induced? It does feel that way, but who knows. It should be noted that only recently did I even find out about Pulsating Tinnitus and I thought to myself oh thank god I don't have that. Did that maybe trigger this with my anxiety??? Why would this start NOW just when I was starting to do better?
Somebody please help and explain pulsating tinnitus to me. Is there treatment for it if I need it? Please God help me at this point. Thursday and Friday were like a miracle. Now I'm broken again, and worse than ever before. I will have to take sick leave from work for the first time in my career if this persists, because I cannot work on 4-5 hours of sleep every night.