- Jan 27, 2016
- 229
- Tinnitus Since
- 01/2016
- Cause of Tinnitus
- Noise induced
Hey guys,
I haven't logged in an while and there's probably a lot of new members but today I had an interesting revelation and felt the need to share it.
To make a long story short I got tinnitus a few years back composing music with earbuds on, playing around with high frequency songs, and went on a binge, 48 hour non-stop session. When I pulled my earbuds out there was a sound that would just never go away. Hello tinnitus, tinnitus meet me. I learned all about this strange and crazy "disease" over the next couple of months.
I went through the typical treatments. I was even a participant in the Auris Medical AM-101 studies and got injections in my ears. Temporary relief initially but impossible to state any permanent benefits from it that I would have otherwise not experienced. You can look through my history to find out more about the studies if interested.
Well I have been pretty cautious with my ears since, mainly just learned to live with it, and not much has changed, I still experience about 1 day of silence a week and the rest of the time I ignore it. Initially I laid off the music for a long time, but I can't give up what I love so I learned to do music even with the annoying sound in my head.
The past couple of weeks it was acting up a bit more than normal. I threw caution to the wind and have been binge composing anyway using them. Went on a binge again. Here's what happened.
I have been trying to brush up a bit on my vocal abilities and since I already had the instrumental wanted to learn Kenny Wayne Shephard's Blue on Black vocals, minute detail by detail, inflection by inflection. I wanted to be able to perfectly reproduce the way he sang it, using my voice in order to expand my vocal range and just to learn some new techniques.
So I did this for the past 2 days. It was a very difficult song for me, and it took listening to it and learning and repeating basically each little word, especially trying to nail his very subtle southern accent, so I must have done each 10 second section at least 100+ times. Listen, practice, record, listen, practice record over and over and over....
Then I realized I have earbuds in. I realized this might be very bad since this is what I believed caused my tinnitus in the first place. So I quickly pulled them out and... total silence. That tinnitus that was acting up, gone. Now I would have silent days before every once in a while, but I would sleep and like clockwork, when I woke up it would be back. Sleeping either helps calm it down, or I have silence, it turns it back on.
But I did sleep and I woke up and now it's still extremely low almost to the point where it's soothing. It's almost like a very colorful, sprinkley white noise now (think seltzer water bubbles). The tone of it shifted for sure, it's so pleasant I could lay down a solo on top of what I am hearing right now.
Well all of a sudden I had a revelation. I remembered the people talking about examples where some went as far as having their cochleas surgically removed, and yet they could still hear it.
Here's what I believe could be going on. Tinnitus, for some of us, is simply a recording that gets permanently imprinted into your memory, AND is constantly played back by the subconscious because it treats this as something so important it needs to be constantly ON, the same way it keeps your eyelids OPEN when you are awake.
In other words the very important things that we need to remember gets stored in long term memory, but we do not actively have to brush up on our memory to remember our names, our family's faces, or even a song we can't get out of our heads. There are some things that are permanently recorded into our memory, and your conscious mind has no business ever needing to do anything to retrieve it. In addition to memory storage and retrieval though, I believe the subconscious brain also moves some things to a sort of motor function where it keeps basic functions ON all the time.
It is entirely possible this could be going on with tinnitus, and it would also explain why when I am sitting here needing to dedicate 100% of my focus on learning this song, which of course has to do with sound, and frequency, my conscious brain at that point triggers my subconscious brain to pay attention. But I believe this only happens when I repeat something for 100+ times, it is only at this point the subconscious brain gets recruited and it says "ok this is important enough that now I have to record" whatever he is trying to learn permanently. Hence, why my tinnitus disappeared. It stops that function, that is keeping my tinnitus active, to concentrate on what I need to learn.
But whoever said tinnitus takes 7 times to remember something, well they never tried to perfectly remember every inflection in Blue on Black, and that was probably the minimum. It could have taken millions, billions or trillions of times throughout your life before whatever sound you have in your head, to be imprinted and to have your brain play it back for you and move it to the section that says "this thing needs to be ON non stop, it's like super important". Which is why the opposite, the silencing tends to happen only when I repeat something hundreds and hundreds of times and I am able to have an effect on it because of hour-long sessions of full concentration. At that point the brain becomes so tired that it is simply unable to cope with keeping everything going, so it begins shutting down unnecessary functions one by one, and eventually tinnitus is one of them.
Whenever we finally get damaged by tinnitus by a particular event, it could be something you notice or not. It could be one or more frequencies, that you hear SO often, that at some point, the subconscious treats it as if its something so important, it needs to be moved into FULL ON position. The final damage is basically just the trigger and if the brain no longer gets that frequency from your ears, it gives it to you. It gets corrupted. It doesn't just get stored in long term memory, but it gets moved to the active part of our brain and it is constantly retrieving this "memory sound' and playing it for us because this stupid little lizard brain wrongly assumes we really need it like all the time! Especially if it's no longer getting it from the outside world because we damaged our ears.
So again, I want to restate, the revelation I am having is that when I recruit the help of my subconscious 100% in order to focus and memorize something for extended periods of time, tinnitus goes away, subsides, and if it involves music, it definitely changes shape/tone, etc. But I think it requires something on this magnitude, and I don't think there are as many people as obsessed as some of us to attempt to memorize or learn something for like a 12 hour session the way I do without breaks. Where you are just 100% plugged in, and don't even stop, except to breathe. I think that's about the only other function my subconscious is able to keep ACTIVE, when I am in these sessions. So that is powerful enough to have an effect on it. Breathing, eyes open, everything else, every other piece of energy it directs it 100% to the task I am working on. And that includes whatever the heck is responsible for tinnitus. At that point it says, "ok I have to shut down this sound too", because he really needs all of his senses.
To me this was definitely an "Aha" moment that its most likely what is going on with my tinnitus.
When I first got tinnitus, I was messing with a high frequency whistle in a synthesizer, so I am pretty sure it was that high frequency that caused it but I don't think that was the cause as much as the trigger. The cause is either constantly hearing those frequencies all of my life, and then all of a sudden missing them and my brain then deciding, I NEED this all the time or else I might stop breathing. Blue on Black is a pretty mellow song, filled with lows and mids. While that may also have something to do with it, especially with perhaps altering the frequency of it, like maybe recording and forcing the subconscious to do the same thing with a 2nd wave that cancels the first one that got imprinted, I believe that isn't as important as the evidence that points to this definitely being something more about a subconscious and long-term memory retrieval issue that ends up becoming a permanent ON function the subconscious brain believes it heard SO many times in our lives, that it must be something we really NEED all the time, especially when it's no longer there and it doesn't get the stimuli from the outside world anymore. That is what I believe to be the mechanism in play here.
So please think twice before anyone wants to do something as extreme as removing your cochleas because I don't think it's going to do anything, and there's probably a good chance injections in our ears like some of us have had to endure, might also do nothing other than cause pain and loose ear drums. What I described above is also an indication why sound therapy, white noise, works for some to a certain extent.
I hope this helps sheds some light on those in positions to do something about it.
I haven't logged in an while and there's probably a lot of new members but today I had an interesting revelation and felt the need to share it.
To make a long story short I got tinnitus a few years back composing music with earbuds on, playing around with high frequency songs, and went on a binge, 48 hour non-stop session. When I pulled my earbuds out there was a sound that would just never go away. Hello tinnitus, tinnitus meet me. I learned all about this strange and crazy "disease" over the next couple of months.
I went through the typical treatments. I was even a participant in the Auris Medical AM-101 studies and got injections in my ears. Temporary relief initially but impossible to state any permanent benefits from it that I would have otherwise not experienced. You can look through my history to find out more about the studies if interested.
Well I have been pretty cautious with my ears since, mainly just learned to live with it, and not much has changed, I still experience about 1 day of silence a week and the rest of the time I ignore it. Initially I laid off the music for a long time, but I can't give up what I love so I learned to do music even with the annoying sound in my head.
The past couple of weeks it was acting up a bit more than normal. I threw caution to the wind and have been binge composing anyway using them. Went on a binge again. Here's what happened.
I have been trying to brush up a bit on my vocal abilities and since I already had the instrumental wanted to learn Kenny Wayne Shephard's Blue on Black vocals, minute detail by detail, inflection by inflection. I wanted to be able to perfectly reproduce the way he sang it, using my voice in order to expand my vocal range and just to learn some new techniques.
So I did this for the past 2 days. It was a very difficult song for me, and it took listening to it and learning and repeating basically each little word, especially trying to nail his very subtle southern accent, so I must have done each 10 second section at least 100+ times. Listen, practice, record, listen, practice record over and over and over....
Then I realized I have earbuds in. I realized this might be very bad since this is what I believed caused my tinnitus in the first place. So I quickly pulled them out and... total silence. That tinnitus that was acting up, gone. Now I would have silent days before every once in a while, but I would sleep and like clockwork, when I woke up it would be back. Sleeping either helps calm it down, or I have silence, it turns it back on.
But I did sleep and I woke up and now it's still extremely low almost to the point where it's soothing. It's almost like a very colorful, sprinkley white noise now (think seltzer water bubbles). The tone of it shifted for sure, it's so pleasant I could lay down a solo on top of what I am hearing right now.
Well all of a sudden I had a revelation. I remembered the people talking about examples where some went as far as having their cochleas surgically removed, and yet they could still hear it.
Here's what I believe could be going on. Tinnitus, for some of us, is simply a recording that gets permanently imprinted into your memory, AND is constantly played back by the subconscious because it treats this as something so important it needs to be constantly ON, the same way it keeps your eyelids OPEN when you are awake.
In other words the very important things that we need to remember gets stored in long term memory, but we do not actively have to brush up on our memory to remember our names, our family's faces, or even a song we can't get out of our heads. There are some things that are permanently recorded into our memory, and your conscious mind has no business ever needing to do anything to retrieve it. In addition to memory storage and retrieval though, I believe the subconscious brain also moves some things to a sort of motor function where it keeps basic functions ON all the time.
It is entirely possible this could be going on with tinnitus, and it would also explain why when I am sitting here needing to dedicate 100% of my focus on learning this song, which of course has to do with sound, and frequency, my conscious brain at that point triggers my subconscious brain to pay attention. But I believe this only happens when I repeat something for 100+ times, it is only at this point the subconscious brain gets recruited and it says "ok this is important enough that now I have to record" whatever he is trying to learn permanently. Hence, why my tinnitus disappeared. It stops that function, that is keeping my tinnitus active, to concentrate on what I need to learn.
But whoever said tinnitus takes 7 times to remember something, well they never tried to perfectly remember every inflection in Blue on Black, and that was probably the minimum. It could have taken millions, billions or trillions of times throughout your life before whatever sound you have in your head, to be imprinted and to have your brain play it back for you and move it to the section that says "this thing needs to be ON non stop, it's like super important". Which is why the opposite, the silencing tends to happen only when I repeat something hundreds and hundreds of times and I am able to have an effect on it because of hour-long sessions of full concentration. At that point the brain becomes so tired that it is simply unable to cope with keeping everything going, so it begins shutting down unnecessary functions one by one, and eventually tinnitus is one of them.
Whenever we finally get damaged by tinnitus by a particular event, it could be something you notice or not. It could be one or more frequencies, that you hear SO often, that at some point, the subconscious treats it as if its something so important, it needs to be moved into FULL ON position. The final damage is basically just the trigger and if the brain no longer gets that frequency from your ears, it gives it to you. It gets corrupted. It doesn't just get stored in long term memory, but it gets moved to the active part of our brain and it is constantly retrieving this "memory sound' and playing it for us because this stupid little lizard brain wrongly assumes we really need it like all the time! Especially if it's no longer getting it from the outside world because we damaged our ears.
So again, I want to restate, the revelation I am having is that when I recruit the help of my subconscious 100% in order to focus and memorize something for extended periods of time, tinnitus goes away, subsides, and if it involves music, it definitely changes shape/tone, etc. But I think it requires something on this magnitude, and I don't think there are as many people as obsessed as some of us to attempt to memorize or learn something for like a 12 hour session the way I do without breaks. Where you are just 100% plugged in, and don't even stop, except to breathe. I think that's about the only other function my subconscious is able to keep ACTIVE, when I am in these sessions. So that is powerful enough to have an effect on it. Breathing, eyes open, everything else, every other piece of energy it directs it 100% to the task I am working on. And that includes whatever the heck is responsible for tinnitus. At that point it says, "ok I have to shut down this sound too", because he really needs all of his senses.
To me this was definitely an "Aha" moment that its most likely what is going on with my tinnitus.
When I first got tinnitus, I was messing with a high frequency whistle in a synthesizer, so I am pretty sure it was that high frequency that caused it but I don't think that was the cause as much as the trigger. The cause is either constantly hearing those frequencies all of my life, and then all of a sudden missing them and my brain then deciding, I NEED this all the time or else I might stop breathing. Blue on Black is a pretty mellow song, filled with lows and mids. While that may also have something to do with it, especially with perhaps altering the frequency of it, like maybe recording and forcing the subconscious to do the same thing with a 2nd wave that cancels the first one that got imprinted, I believe that isn't as important as the evidence that points to this definitely being something more about a subconscious and long-term memory retrieval issue that ends up becoming a permanent ON function the subconscious brain believes it heard SO many times in our lives, that it must be something we really NEED all the time, especially when it's no longer there and it doesn't get the stimuli from the outside world anymore. That is what I believe to be the mechanism in play here.
So please think twice before anyone wants to do something as extreme as removing your cochleas because I don't think it's going to do anything, and there's probably a good chance injections in our ears like some of us have had to endure, might also do nothing other than cause pain and loose ear drums. What I described above is also an indication why sound therapy, white noise, works for some to a certain extent.
I hope this helps sheds some light on those in positions to do something about it.