Hello, I have never posted on this forum before but I feel that now is the right time to do so.
On 1st February, I decided to listen to some music on an old iPod with some earphones/earbuds. The volume was probably a 2 out of 10 and then I turned it up to 3 out of 10 for about 20 minutes or so before turning it back down to 2 out of 10. I listened to my iPod for about 90 minutes in total and after I noticed a ringing in my ears. Stupidly, I listened to some more music that evening and the next day (I really wish I hadn't now) but I stopped after that. I thought it was odd but didn't think too much about it, a week passed and it was still there. A month later, I went to the doctor and explained what happened, they prescribed me some Amitriptyline but that hardly made any difference. I also went to see an audiologist for a hearing test and they said my hearing was fine and normal for my age.
Eventually I started to panic, "why has the ringing in my ears not gone away? It should've gone away by now" and as a result the last two months have been miserable. I have not been myself at all, waking up every morning and hearing this ringing in my ears is so distressing. I try to do things to distract myself from it, the audiologist recommended downloading an app called 'Beltone Tinnitus Calmer'. I have created my own plan and listen to white noise every morning for about 25-30 minutes but it hasn't made a difference. I'm not using earphones or headphones at the moment, any sound that comes out of my phone, tablet or computer comes out of external speakers. I can sleep fine though, I don't need to use sound masking at night. The not knowing if this will go away or not, how am I going to live the rest of my life like this? My mind has gone to really dark places which I just didn't think were possible. I have read lots of posts on this forum as I'm relatively new to all of this. I have read a lot of the success stories on this forum as well in order to give myself hope.
I can't tell you how much I regret listening to my iPod on 1st February, I never listen to music on it so that makes it all the more frustrating. If I hadn't, I'm convinced that none of this would've happened. I've been to music concerts in the past (without ear protection which was stupid looking back) and only once did I have tinnitus after but it went away after a day. I'm pretty sure I suffered from hyperacusis before my tinnitus started, does that mean anything? Before my tinnitus started, I sometimes listened to podcasts, YouTube videos through earphones/earbuds (like everyone else in the world) but they never caused tinnitus (I always had them at a low volume). How can an iPod from 2007 cause so much damage to my quality of life? I just don't understand. Is there a time limit for when tinnitus is considered permanent? 6 months? 1 year? 2 years?
I've heard about habituation, is that as close to a cure that you can get? How do I get there? I'm really scared at the moment, I just want this nightmare to be over and for the ringing in my ears to stop. I would do ANYTHING!
On 1st February, I decided to listen to some music on an old iPod with some earphones/earbuds. The volume was probably a 2 out of 10 and then I turned it up to 3 out of 10 for about 20 minutes or so before turning it back down to 2 out of 10. I listened to my iPod for about 90 minutes in total and after I noticed a ringing in my ears. Stupidly, I listened to some more music that evening and the next day (I really wish I hadn't now) but I stopped after that. I thought it was odd but didn't think too much about it, a week passed and it was still there. A month later, I went to the doctor and explained what happened, they prescribed me some Amitriptyline but that hardly made any difference. I also went to see an audiologist for a hearing test and they said my hearing was fine and normal for my age.
Eventually I started to panic, "why has the ringing in my ears not gone away? It should've gone away by now" and as a result the last two months have been miserable. I have not been myself at all, waking up every morning and hearing this ringing in my ears is so distressing. I try to do things to distract myself from it, the audiologist recommended downloading an app called 'Beltone Tinnitus Calmer'. I have created my own plan and listen to white noise every morning for about 25-30 minutes but it hasn't made a difference. I'm not using earphones or headphones at the moment, any sound that comes out of my phone, tablet or computer comes out of external speakers. I can sleep fine though, I don't need to use sound masking at night. The not knowing if this will go away or not, how am I going to live the rest of my life like this? My mind has gone to really dark places which I just didn't think were possible. I have read lots of posts on this forum as I'm relatively new to all of this. I have read a lot of the success stories on this forum as well in order to give myself hope.
I can't tell you how much I regret listening to my iPod on 1st February, I never listen to music on it so that makes it all the more frustrating. If I hadn't, I'm convinced that none of this would've happened. I've been to music concerts in the past (without ear protection which was stupid looking back) and only once did I have tinnitus after but it went away after a day. I'm pretty sure I suffered from hyperacusis before my tinnitus started, does that mean anything? Before my tinnitus started, I sometimes listened to podcasts, YouTube videos through earphones/earbuds (like everyone else in the world) but they never caused tinnitus (I always had them at a low volume). How can an iPod from 2007 cause so much damage to my quality of life? I just don't understand. Is there a time limit for when tinnitus is considered permanent? 6 months? 1 year? 2 years?
I've heard about habituation, is that as close to a cure that you can get? How do I get there? I'm really scared at the moment, I just want this nightmare to be over and for the ringing in my ears to stop. I would do ANYTHING!