Hi Everyone,
I am 2.5 months into suffering from tinnitus and some mild/moderate hyperacusis in my right ear. It showed up shortly after being exposed to gunfire at an indoor gun range (even though I was wearing hearing protection). I am 35, otherwise in good health and have never had problems with my hearing. Like many people, I went to see an audiologist and my audiogram shows no hearing loss (up to 8 kHz) and no issues recognizing speech. I primarily experience tinnitus as a high pitched hiss or static in my head. Sometimes there is also a lower toned ring in my right ear. It is very challenging to mask the high pitched static and the only place it completely disappears is when I am in the shower (I have been taking a LOT of showers).
Over the past couple weeks my mental health degraded quickly to the point where my doctor and I agreed that I should try an SSRI (Zoloft). Seeing all of the negative posts about SSRI's on this forum made that decision extremely stressful but it felt like the best option to pull out of my emotional nosedive. I have also tried a couple different sleep aids but nothing seems to help much (Trazadone, Ativan, Melatonin). At best I manage 4-5 hours, most nights are worse. What makes sleeping so difficult are the continuous panic attacks right at the point of going to sleep. Nothing I do try seems to calm the mind/body.
Despite my best attempts to remain positive I am hitting rock bottom. None of the therapy, CBT or meditation I have tried seems to make a positive impact. I feel stuck in a negative feedback loop of despair and have for the first time in my life begun having suicidal thoughts. Tinnitus Talk Success Stories I read of habituation or recovery seem impossibly out of reach. My family is very supportive but it is difficult for them to understand what I am going through.
Since I am still in the acute phase I realize that a lot can still change with this condition, but I am hoping other members of the forum can offer some support or advice on how to navigate this stage of tinnitus.
Specifically, any suggestions on the following:
Wishing you all a calm and quiet day,
Leif
I am 2.5 months into suffering from tinnitus and some mild/moderate hyperacusis in my right ear. It showed up shortly after being exposed to gunfire at an indoor gun range (even though I was wearing hearing protection). I am 35, otherwise in good health and have never had problems with my hearing. Like many people, I went to see an audiologist and my audiogram shows no hearing loss (up to 8 kHz) and no issues recognizing speech. I primarily experience tinnitus as a high pitched hiss or static in my head. Sometimes there is also a lower toned ring in my right ear. It is very challenging to mask the high pitched static and the only place it completely disappears is when I am in the shower (I have been taking a LOT of showers).
Over the past couple weeks my mental health degraded quickly to the point where my doctor and I agreed that I should try an SSRI (Zoloft). Seeing all of the negative posts about SSRI's on this forum made that decision extremely stressful but it felt like the best option to pull out of my emotional nosedive. I have also tried a couple different sleep aids but nothing seems to help much (Trazadone, Ativan, Melatonin). At best I manage 4-5 hours, most nights are worse. What makes sleeping so difficult are the continuous panic attacks right at the point of going to sleep. Nothing I do try seems to calm the mind/body.
Despite my best attempts to remain positive I am hitting rock bottom. None of the therapy, CBT or meditation I have tried seems to make a positive impact. I feel stuck in a negative feedback loop of despair and have for the first time in my life begun having suicidal thoughts. Tinnitus Talk Success Stories I read of habituation or recovery seem impossibly out of reach. My family is very supportive but it is difficult for them to understand what I am going through.
Since I am still in the acute phase I realize that a lot can still change with this condition, but I am hoping other members of the forum can offer some support or advice on how to navigate this stage of tinnitus.
Specifically, any suggestions on the following:
- Tips on overcoming the lack of sleep and paralyzing anxiety attacks?
- How did you turn the corner mentally and get control over your reaction to tinnitus? What gave you hope in your darkest times?
- Suggestions on how to manage/improve the hyperacusis in my right ear? Is exposing it to normal/safe sound (frequency/loudness) good exposure therapy despite some discomfort? Doing so seems to exacerbate the tinnitus (real or imagined).
- At only 2.5 months in, should I be hopeful that the tinnitus/hyperacusis will eventually fade?
- At what volume should I begin protecting my ears? I read one post saying nothing over 70db for six months following acoustic trauma.
- Did anyone find it helpful or harmful to take a leave of absence from work to aid their recovery?
Wishing you all a calm and quiet day,
Leif