Well said
@soundmachine regarding hope and unfairness...
Yes, life is unfair..I mean who said it was gonna be "fair" anyways..I think the real issue here is grief..and we all have to go through it.
Like that saying, if you get caught in the fire, keep walking..or something like that...
I don't care how shitty I feel, I get up and I run. I mean I've had one hell of a year. One thing after another, it would be a bad reality show but make for good drama..
But I get up, and I run. I feel the sun on my face, I inhale the lilacs and I thank the universe I am alive (T, h ear pain or not) and that I have legs to run with, cause at this moment it's truly the only time I feel strong.
It's ok to be angry-for now, it's part of the process..nobody wants to be ill...