Hello friends.
I write here in hope of some support, and maybe hear about your experiences.
This is a rollercoaster. Sometimes I feel very habituated. Like, when I fall a sleep, I can hear my 5 (where one of them is very loud) tones and (almost) seek comfort in them, if that makes sense, and then I fall asleep listening to them.
But then sometimes - like last night - I wake up in the middle of the night, full of anxiety and fear of the loud concert from hell that is going on inside my head, thinking "I'll NEVER fall asleep with this, and I can certainly not live like this for the rest of my life".
It feels like a ship rocking back and forth. Sometimes, some days, I think "well... this isn't great, but I can live with it." Other days (like today), it is stressing me out and is stealing all focus from all work and conversations.
Do you guys also have this experience?