I've never experienced tinnitus until October 19th (I think). From then on I've been having tinnitus that can be usually heard in quiet environments and can be masked when I'm outside or in any place with background noise if I'm not thinking about it. It's louder/more bothersome in my right ear because it's a high pitch sound mixed with a humming sound. My tinnitus started after my excessive fear that I had hearing loss problems. That fear came from the fact that I had worn headphones everyday for the past 2 years. I started to think: "what if this has affected me" and "I should search this up" which was a huge mistake. I found out about something along the lines of "hidden hearing loss" and started constantly trying to listen out for any sign of tinnitus as that was apparently one of the symptoms of it.
A few days later (October 19th), I did start to hear a high pitched ringing noise in my right ear and started panicking about it. I went to see my GP and he checked my ears and said there was no sign of infection and both my ears were perfectly healthy. He said I had no hearing loss, did not need a hearing test or an MRI. I still panicked anyway as I could still hear it when trying to sleep at night. I spent the next few months crying over this stupid noise and hoping for it to go away... If I had never searched up anything to do with hearing loss, I don't think I would ever have started hearing this high pitched noise. Googling tinnitus became an obsession and I cried more over the fact that there was "no cure". I started hearing a low humming noise along with the high pitched noise in my right ear. The other ear also has a sort of high pitch but it's not as noticeable as the one in my right. Maybe my right ear noise is more noticeable because I was always trying to hear it in that ear since that's the ear I first heard tinnitus in.
I can't concentrate on anything anymore. My parents refuse to let me go see an ENT because they say it's all in my head and I just need to stop thinking about it. But my anxiety won't let me. I don't think I have TMJ or ETD. No history of hyperacusis. I don't have any of the other symptoms of those conditions. No pain or clicking in my jaw, no discomfort, no ear fullness, nothing. I know that not knowing what tinnitus is/never searching it up would result in me not hearing this but if this is psychosomatic, how come it's louder in my right ear? That scares me. Surely I'd be able to hear it equally in both ears if it was, right...? I want to go back to silence. I want to stop crying over this. Why is it louder in my right ear? Is there something wrong or is it all in my head? I don't understand this. I've been known for having a higher level of panic/anxiety and I only developed tinnitus when finding out about what it was.
Not knowing the exact cause of tinnitus only makes me stress out more. If it was headphones, I would've gotten tinnitus without having to do extensive research on what tinnitus is. But the tinnitus is different in both ears. Maybe it'll never go away now. I'll be aware of it forever.
A few days later (October 19th), I did start to hear a high pitched ringing noise in my right ear and started panicking about it. I went to see my GP and he checked my ears and said there was no sign of infection and both my ears were perfectly healthy. He said I had no hearing loss, did not need a hearing test or an MRI. I still panicked anyway as I could still hear it when trying to sleep at night. I spent the next few months crying over this stupid noise and hoping for it to go away... If I had never searched up anything to do with hearing loss, I don't think I would ever have started hearing this high pitched noise. Googling tinnitus became an obsession and I cried more over the fact that there was "no cure". I started hearing a low humming noise along with the high pitched noise in my right ear. The other ear also has a sort of high pitch but it's not as noticeable as the one in my right. Maybe my right ear noise is more noticeable because I was always trying to hear it in that ear since that's the ear I first heard tinnitus in.
I can't concentrate on anything anymore. My parents refuse to let me go see an ENT because they say it's all in my head and I just need to stop thinking about it. But my anxiety won't let me. I don't think I have TMJ or ETD. No history of hyperacusis. I don't have any of the other symptoms of those conditions. No pain or clicking in my jaw, no discomfort, no ear fullness, nothing. I know that not knowing what tinnitus is/never searching it up would result in me not hearing this but if this is psychosomatic, how come it's louder in my right ear? That scares me. Surely I'd be able to hear it equally in both ears if it was, right...? I want to go back to silence. I want to stop crying over this. Why is it louder in my right ear? Is there something wrong or is it all in my head? I don't understand this. I've been known for having a higher level of panic/anxiety and I only developed tinnitus when finding out about what it was.
Not knowing the exact cause of tinnitus only makes me stress out more. If it was headphones, I would've gotten tinnitus without having to do extensive research on what tinnitus is. But the tinnitus is different in both ears. Maybe it'll never go away now. I'll be aware of it forever.