- Mar 15, 2023
- 1
- Tinnitus Since
- 06/2022
- Cause of Tinnitus
- Exposure to loud sounds: clubs, concerts, band practice
Hey everyone,
I've been a lurker on Tinnitus Talk for a few months. I've read many posts about noise-induced tinnitus, success stories, and some not-so-hopeful ones. I just wanted to introduce myself and share how I got my tinnitus.
I've been a musician since I was 14 (30 now). I used to go to shows in my youth and not wear earplugs. When I lived overseas, I used to go to clubs a lot and played a lot of live gigs (still no hearing protection). I would listen to music with earbuds on the bus and would turn the volume up to not hear the bus noises. My Samsung phone at the time would even tell me when the noise levels were too loud to listen safely, but I always ignored it (I wish I did now, but that was then, oh well).
I came back to the United States in 2020 to visit for 3 weeks, and my return flight to China (where I was living) got canceled because of COVID-19. Some friends of mine got together for a Jam session and decided to make a band out of what we had since I was stuck in the United States.
We practiced in a small studio space for about 2 years before playing shows. We started playing music through stage speakers/monitors but then switched to an in-ear system to be able to record our practices and songs. The headphones I wore didn't cancel any noise, and with a drummer in a small space and me blasting the volume in my headphones in my ears to hear over him, led to me developing my tinnitus. My tinnitus started in June 2022, and I had to cancel playing in our biggest show at the time yet because of how much it freaked me out.
I went to an ENT and got the ol' "you gotta live with it" spiel and that was it. I switched to noise isolation in-ear monitors and wore gun-range earmuffs over them to give me pristine noise isolation. I also use a personal mixer with a noise limiter on it and play at the lowest level possible, but I've read here that that isn't even safe.
When we play shows and the mixer isn't a viable option, I double up ear protection with Eargasms in my ears and the gun-range earmuffs over that. I'm probably getting about a 34-36 dB reduction with the combo. I'm in a precarious situation where our band is really starting to gain traction professionally and we could be living off our music within the next year or so. If this is the case, my dream would be coming true. The only thing is that I'm not sure, even with my precautions in place, that I won't end up messing my ears up more and having to end it later down the line with worse tinnitus/hearing damage than before.
I'm not worried about ending my own dream but more so ending the dreams of my fellow bandmates if I were to quit. I can't see myself doing anything else in life that would be more enjoyable than playing music and living off it for the rest of my life. I have read about many musicians that play with tinnitus and live with it, but I'm at an impasse and don't know what to do.
To add insult to injury, this past Sunday I was watching TV and lost hearing in my left ear for about 20-30 seconds and then it swiftly faded back in. I'm having trouble figuring out if this was SSHL, or if it was an episode of fleeting tinnitus. Sometimes it happens a few times a week, or it doesn't happen at all.
I went to the immediate care and they referred me to another ENT for a follow-up on my first visit, although I'm going to go to a different ENT than before.
I guess I'm just looking for some guidance as to what my options are. Should I give it all up? Have any other musicians experienced anything similar? I've read a few posts about musicians on here but none really answered my questions.
Sorry for the huge wall of text but I needed to get a lot of this off my chest. I have tinnitus in both my ears but it's much louder in my left and not noticeable in my right unless I'm going to sleep. I use white noise on my phone to help mask it for sleep.
I'm doing well coping with I think, but some days/weeks are worse than others.
Anyways, thanks for coming and listening to my TED Talk. Any comments or thoughts would be greatly appreciated.
Cheers!
I've been a lurker on Tinnitus Talk for a few months. I've read many posts about noise-induced tinnitus, success stories, and some not-so-hopeful ones. I just wanted to introduce myself and share how I got my tinnitus.
I've been a musician since I was 14 (30 now). I used to go to shows in my youth and not wear earplugs. When I lived overseas, I used to go to clubs a lot and played a lot of live gigs (still no hearing protection). I would listen to music with earbuds on the bus and would turn the volume up to not hear the bus noises. My Samsung phone at the time would even tell me when the noise levels were too loud to listen safely, but I always ignored it (I wish I did now, but that was then, oh well).
I came back to the United States in 2020 to visit for 3 weeks, and my return flight to China (where I was living) got canceled because of COVID-19. Some friends of mine got together for a Jam session and decided to make a band out of what we had since I was stuck in the United States.
We practiced in a small studio space for about 2 years before playing shows. We started playing music through stage speakers/monitors but then switched to an in-ear system to be able to record our practices and songs. The headphones I wore didn't cancel any noise, and with a drummer in a small space and me blasting the volume in my headphones in my ears to hear over him, led to me developing my tinnitus. My tinnitus started in June 2022, and I had to cancel playing in our biggest show at the time yet because of how much it freaked me out.
I went to an ENT and got the ol' "you gotta live with it" spiel and that was it. I switched to noise isolation in-ear monitors and wore gun-range earmuffs over them to give me pristine noise isolation. I also use a personal mixer with a noise limiter on it and play at the lowest level possible, but I've read here that that isn't even safe.
When we play shows and the mixer isn't a viable option, I double up ear protection with Eargasms in my ears and the gun-range earmuffs over that. I'm probably getting about a 34-36 dB reduction with the combo. I'm in a precarious situation where our band is really starting to gain traction professionally and we could be living off our music within the next year or so. If this is the case, my dream would be coming true. The only thing is that I'm not sure, even with my precautions in place, that I won't end up messing my ears up more and having to end it later down the line with worse tinnitus/hearing damage than before.
I'm not worried about ending my own dream but more so ending the dreams of my fellow bandmates if I were to quit. I can't see myself doing anything else in life that would be more enjoyable than playing music and living off it for the rest of my life. I have read about many musicians that play with tinnitus and live with it, but I'm at an impasse and don't know what to do.
To add insult to injury, this past Sunday I was watching TV and lost hearing in my left ear for about 20-30 seconds and then it swiftly faded back in. I'm having trouble figuring out if this was SSHL, or if it was an episode of fleeting tinnitus. Sometimes it happens a few times a week, or it doesn't happen at all.
I went to the immediate care and they referred me to another ENT for a follow-up on my first visit, although I'm going to go to a different ENT than before.
I guess I'm just looking for some guidance as to what my options are. Should I give it all up? Have any other musicians experienced anything similar? I've read a few posts about musicians on here but none really answered my questions.
Sorry for the huge wall of text but I needed to get a lot of this off my chest. I have tinnitus in both my ears but it's much louder in my left and not noticeable in my right unless I'm going to sleep. I use white noise on my phone to help mask it for sleep.
I'm doing well coping with I think, but some days/weeks are worse than others.
Anyways, thanks for coming and listening to my TED Talk. Any comments or thoughts would be greatly appreciated.
Cheers!