Hi everyone,
I've been reading this forum for a while but just recently made a profile. Almost 3 months ago was the worst day of my life, I went to an Asian day spa and asked for a cranial sacral massage. The woman squeezed my head so hard I almost passed out, multiple times without stopping despite me requesting for her to stop. When I got off the table my ear was ringing. That week it progressed to a fire- alarm level and was so bad for a month I really contemplated killing my self. During that month I was so nauseous, sick, and out of it I didn't even know what to do with myself. I've never had any ear issues before. I took a hearing test and they said I have above perfect hearing— musical hearing in fact. They ruled out ETD with a myringotomy and camera, they ruled out general tinnitus because I've never been around loud noise/ concerts/ etc and I passed the hair cell test. They are telling me that I have some sort of cranial nerve damage and that they think I had a mini-stroke (transient) on the table. My physical symptoms (balance, coordination, eye tracking) has gotten better but the tinnitus and head sensations have stayed.
The tinnitus has gone down to a 3/4 but is never a constant pitch. It's always switching between wooshing, hissing, ringing, parastesis, and really a number noises. I always have electrical sensations in my head. Sometimes it's tinnitus, sometimes it's an entire head sensation. I've seen so many ENTS and neurologists who just tell me I have cranial nerve damage and tinnitus and I need to live with it.
the thing is, I can't. I can't habituate because the noise isn't constant and it's always changing. Seeing an osteopath, neurological chiropractor, acupuncture, etc helps but not too much. I need some sort of guidance on how I can possibly try to treat this since it's somatic, and how to live with it in the meantime. I've truly never been suicidal in my life but as a 29 year old female with multiple businesses I really cannot imagine living like this. I had two miscarriages the months prior to this incident, and I was supposed to be trying again during this time and the despair of this injury coupled with my
Wanting to be a mother has made me beyond depressed. I'd appreciate any and all input regarding this. Thank you so much.
I've been reading this forum for a while but just recently made a profile. Almost 3 months ago was the worst day of my life, I went to an Asian day spa and asked for a cranial sacral massage. The woman squeezed my head so hard I almost passed out, multiple times without stopping despite me requesting for her to stop. When I got off the table my ear was ringing. That week it progressed to a fire- alarm level and was so bad for a month I really contemplated killing my self. During that month I was so nauseous, sick, and out of it I didn't even know what to do with myself. I've never had any ear issues before. I took a hearing test and they said I have above perfect hearing— musical hearing in fact. They ruled out ETD with a myringotomy and camera, they ruled out general tinnitus because I've never been around loud noise/ concerts/ etc and I passed the hair cell test. They are telling me that I have some sort of cranial nerve damage and that they think I had a mini-stroke (transient) on the table. My physical symptoms (balance, coordination, eye tracking) has gotten better but the tinnitus and head sensations have stayed.
The tinnitus has gone down to a 3/4 but is never a constant pitch. It's always switching between wooshing, hissing, ringing, parastesis, and really a number noises. I always have electrical sensations in my head. Sometimes it's tinnitus, sometimes it's an entire head sensation. I've seen so many ENTS and neurologists who just tell me I have cranial nerve damage and tinnitus and I need to live with it.
the thing is, I can't. I can't habituate because the noise isn't constant and it's always changing. Seeing an osteopath, neurological chiropractor, acupuncture, etc helps but not too much. I need some sort of guidance on how I can possibly try to treat this since it's somatic, and how to live with it in the meantime. I've truly never been suicidal in my life but as a 29 year old female with multiple businesses I really cannot imagine living like this. I had two miscarriages the months prior to this incident, and I was supposed to be trying again during this time and the despair of this injury coupled with my
Wanting to be a mother has made me beyond depressed. I'd appreciate any and all input regarding this. Thank you so much.